Big Big Meltdown

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Well there I go again with smashing the s**t out the apartment.
Nothing is safe when I get angry. But the thing is I don't think I am angry, I am frustrated.
I don't know what to do I really don't.
I am very depressed these days and feel like a total pleb.
I am working too hard and I know it. But I don't have any support that helps me cope with the extra workload.
I wish I could be more descriptive.
In that place again where I push everybody away and just want to be left alone.
Why do I choose to screw things up?
Oh I don't know, all I know is that it's late at night and I will be having another restless nights sleep.

I don't think you chose to be angry or frusterated-no one does

you just need someone to vent to
ya know
it really helps

trust me lol

I feel the same. Why does this happen? Is it caused by work stress? I feel I want to withdraw from all my friends. Seems like they taunt me trying to make me have a meltdown. Like they text me asking what I'm up to then I reply and ask them the same thing and then get no reply, or making arrangements then cancelling at the last minute. This is fine, things happen and you have to change plans at the last minute but normally this happens infrequently and if something suddenly came up while sending a text message they could send a reply later that day. Wtf is wrong with people or am I crazy?

I know I am hyper-sensitive and the little things build up quickly into one big thing.
I have a nasty habit of not speaking a lot and as I get older I like to be left alone, so long as there is somebody in the background.
One thing that I wish would come more easily to me is communication.
The lack thereof makes life a lot harder for people around me, especially my partner.
It seems to run in cycles, every three years or so I go through a period of rollercoaster emotions that can't be pinned to anything.
Perhaps the serotonin levels in my brain max out every three years!
Its a bugger of a job getting through the day and I am going to try and control myself a little more.
First thing would be to communicate and trust a bit more.
That is going to be one tough thing to try and do, but only I can do it.

Later Later and thanks for the replies

I know what yer talking about. One day I was driving home from work, and ran over what I thought was a piece of cardboard. It was metal, and gouged my car's oil pan. I couldn't concentrate, I couldn't think straight, I only knew I was Totally ANGRY. Didn't help the situation at all, and freaked The Missus out. Meltdowns don't solve anything, but we seem to be powerless to stop them from happening ....

Suzie,

That's a brilliant quote you have from F&LILV!! !

I just felt compelled to comment.

I feel the same way, i feel like i'm the only one that screws up, why cant i be a "better" person for once?!

Thank you Dwight, glad the Hunter S crowd is represented here, I see another member with the Gonzo symbol.

I know that my current partner doesn't "know" me like my previous one did but the previous one didn't treat me all that well so I am closed up like a little box, waiting to be opened!

Right now I am incredibly stressed and in a situation that is so "mature" that I feel lost.

I wish that I was more mature and such but I don't think that is ever going to happen.
In the mornings when I wake up and in the evenings before I go to bed I seem to revert back to being a child.

I really, really hate being like a kid.
There I have said it.
I hate being me sometimes.

Did it feel good to say?
No!