Batman1992 wrote:
I had a beautiful cat since I was 8 years old. Her name was Esmeralda and she became more than a pet, she became a friend. Back in late May, we learned that she had developed breast cancer, which was common in her breed (she was a Siamese) and was terminal. A couple of months ago, her cancer got to the point where we had to have her euthanized. We even ordered her a stone, which has her name, the dates we've had her and the saying (from one of my favorite songs) "If only Angels could prevail, we'd be the way we were." I've been getting used to her being gone, but I still miss her.
I'm sorry to hear of your loss.
I had a cat, when I was growing up, with whom I was inseparable (except when they sent me off to school). Got the cat when I was 7 and it was born on our back porch. It died when it was 16. I am now in my fifties and I still remember and miss that cat. I have another feline friend now, who has just turned 19. I do realize that my time with him is limited, but I'll remember him after he leaves me, as well. It's good that you didn't let her suffer. Putting a pet down is always hard - they are family. I was devastated when I had to have my little friend handed back to me in a box like that. But sometimes it's the kinder thing. Hard on us, but better for them.
Perhaps, in time, you will visit an animal shelter and find someone else who needs a good home, and bring them home to live with you. They won't replace Esmeralda - they can never do that. But they might find a place in your life.