has it ever occurred to you hours after a conversation that you could have said something you don't distinctly remember saying?
i just think maybe i did because i usually refer to this person by a disparaging nickname when talking to people who don't know them and i was in a state of surprise which might have meant i failed to realise immediately that i'd had a huge slip of the tongue.
the friend i was talking to who is also friends with this person didn't seem to react, at least not verbally, but he might have been eating and i wasn't looking at him, and he didn't have much time to before my phone rang and may have already forgotten (temporarily) about it by the time i got off the phone.
it occurred to me three hours later as i checked my phone that i might have done this, and the consequences could be dire if i have. i have no real memory of doing so but maybe i know i did so i'm repressing the memory.