What keeps you from committing suicide?

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1. My mum would be upset.

2. Curiosity about what tomorrow will bring.

3. Knowing things can change, and with enough effort and time they will.

4. Iv'e got this thing about the majority of society being influenced and controlled by the lowest common denominator, we're led by the least compassionate, intelligent, creative etc. Well I am not going to be influenced by them. I'm going to live to my own expectations and rules (which are far above theirs). This sometimes means *trying* to live with no regard for what others thing, and at other times living purely in spite of what they think.

5. I have plenty of hobies to keep my mind off suicide.

6. Humor.

7. The Dharma.

I'm devoted to my art. Until I feel it's complete, not my Mother, not my brother, not my few friends, especially my closest one, gets to make that decision. Until I reach that point, I am not ready to die. That's right, I'm not ready. I've got too many tales to tell.

i feel incredibly low at the moment. i'm too scared to kill myself. i used to keep alive for art. that was it, but now also my brother, i really wouldn't want to hurt him.

My family and other people who care about me.
Plus I would be embarrassed knowing I committed suicide and I don't know what happens after death.

My mum, my 12 year old sister who is also AS like myself and Astrid, my beloved dog. I made a serious attept to end my life in 2007, i am ashamed of this. Now when ever i feel suicidal i think of how life would be for them if i did take my own life, i think of what a stupid drunken pathetic coward i was in 07 and that usually reduces me to tears and is always enough to drive away any thoughts of suicide.

Mine is simple. Basic human instinct--I simply want to live. Even I feel so depressed, the last thing I will ever do is to kill myself. Plus, I know there are people who love me--and everyone in WP's included! LOL.... Seriously, I don't wanna die yet.

Nr 1. My dog.
Nr 2. My family would most likley blame themselves.
Nr 3. My god-daughter.
Nr 4. Her mother, my friend.
Nr 5. My duty to spread my genes before I die, I can't let that endless line of forefathers down.

This is becoming depressingly long, not much chance of an early sleep.

1) My family being sad (and angry) at me for leaving when they wanted me to be here
2) Inner strength in my subconscious (i guess the will to live)

1.Family
2.A few special online friends...one who is in Manitoba in particular.
3.Only one more year of college left to go....I am already in the process of improving my life..I don't need to screw that up
4.The human instinct of the will and desire to live.

1. I don't have the guts to kill myself.

2. I'm still a virgin.

Zoloft. Also the waiting period for a gun is two weeks in my state. So I drink to numb the pain.

I always used to think it was because I was too scared or was afraid of pain or because I didn't have the balls or the right tools and because I didn't want to upset my family (why would I care if dead?) etc etc but what it really is is that I don't really want to die at all and actually enjoy being alive. I suspect it's the same for most people who are depressed due to the social problems of AS. What's changed is I don't care wether I fit in or not now because I know I don't and never will. I now realise I wasted the last 30 years of my life in mouring for the life I thought I should have had, talk about chasing shadows. Still have bad days but I generally get angry rather than sad these days, anger can be useful.

I don't even know anymore.

I just think it's illogical. The situation sucks but that's still better than no situation at all.

I don't know.

I really, really don't know.

I used to have reasons for not doing it. One of them was a friend who I thought actually cared what happened to me, but turns out I was very wrong about that. I really don't care about my family, because they don't really care about me. I'll miss my pets though. Some say it's a permanent solution to a temporary problem, but when the problem has existed your entire life and has not improved much ever, then how is it only temporary? Sometimes I just think that everyone would be so much happier without me around. Actually, I know they would.