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26 Sep 2009, 8:31 pm

Every single day its a struggle to live. i feel like im helpless. I cant do anything right. My attention span is the worst. i cant hold a job. i cant sit in class. i cant hold a conversation for more than 30 seconds without getting bored. i cant even fu**in watch a movie or listen to a song for more than 5 seconds. i cant fall asleep for days at a time, i lie in my bed for hours on end wondering if ill ever fall asleep. and when i do, its only for 10 or 20 minutes and then i wake up more awake and depressed than ever. my life is a huge failure. whats the point? whats the point of struggling so much now for later on in life? so i can fail then too and not have a job or a family?? whats the point? im beginning to lose all motivation to do anything. i dont evem have enough motivation to go end my life. all i can do is just sit here. Is it really worth it???



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26 Sep 2009, 8:39 pm

Why don't you go see a doctor and tell him this? There are any number of physical ailments that can drain you. Depression is just one of them. I'd say eliminate the physical first. Hope things look better soon.



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26 Sep 2009, 8:55 pm

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Every single day its a struggle to live. i feel like im helpless. I cant do anything right. My attention span is the worst. i cant hold a job. i cant sit in class. i cant hold a conversation for more than 30 seconds without getting bored. i cant even fu**in watch a movie or listen to a song for more than 5 seconds. i cant fall asleep for days at a time, i lie in my bed for hours on end wondering if ill ever fall asleep. and when i do, its only for 10 or 20 minutes and then i wake up more awake and depressed than ever. my life is a huge failure. whats the point? whats the point of struggling so much now for later on in life? so i can fail then too and not have a job or a family?? whats the point? im beginning to lose all motivation to do anything. i dont evem have enough motivation to go end my life. all i can do is just sit here. Is it really worth it???


I feel like that, too. My therapist says it is untreated depression. I say it is just my life. She says it's because I don't know what depression is and if I wasn't depressed I would be able to appreciate the difference between being depressed and not being depressed. She said I could tell her she was wrong if I let her treat me for depression and then see if I noticed a difference. I told her 'your on!' and started taking the SSRI and the mood stabilizers. I don't know what it will do, but I have felt like you do since I was 19 and it is time for a change!


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26 Sep 2009, 9:13 pm

I too had no idea what "good" felt like. Antidepressants probably saved my life because I was nearing the end of my endurance. It is not a happy pill but puts you in a better position to make some changes. Give them a chance to work and sometimes it takes a difference in dosage or a different med. They will always start you off at a lower dosage just to see if you tolerate the meds and then adjust from there.



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26 Sep 2009, 9:38 pm

I think the main point can be insomnia.

Go check it



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26 Sep 2009, 11:43 pm

Learn about manipulation.



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27 Sep 2009, 12:46 am

Pobodys_Nerfect wrote:
Learn about manipulation.
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27 Sep 2009, 1:07 am

bonez wrote:
Pobodys_Nerfect wrote:
Learn about manipulation.
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yeah, I didn't really understand that, either.


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27 Sep 2009, 2:58 am

bonez wrote:
Every single day its a struggle to live. i feel like im helpless. I cant do anything right. My attention span is the worst. i cant hold a job. i cant sit in class. i cant hold a conversation for more than 30 seconds without getting bored. i cant even fu**in watch a movie or listen to a song for more than 5 seconds. i cant fall asleep for days at a time, i lie in my bed for hours on end wondering if ill ever fall asleep. and when i do, its only for 10 or 20 minutes and then i wake up more awake and depressed than ever. my life is a huge failure. whats the point? whats the point of struggling so much now for later on in life? so i can fail then too and not have a job or a family?? whats the point? im beginning to lose all motivation to do anything. i dont evem have enough motivation to go end my life. all i can do is just sit here. Is it really worth it???


Run. If you ever find yourself losing concentration just excuse yourself and go for a run. I don't have that option, so if I find myself losing concentration I tend to go for a walk around the building.

Just run and keep running. If anything, it could help you sleep. I think you have too much energy.


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27 Sep 2009, 10:58 am

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Learn about manipulation.


Are we talking about manipulating our "parts"? because it's true that an orgasm is the best sleeping pill ever.