How do I remember how to enjoy life and learning?

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I'm 16 male and Aspie. I used to be very intelligent, but now I feel like I've forgotten how to be intelligent.

I was bored and bullied most of early school, and in secondary I was bored and the teachers didn't care about AS or about the mental health of their students.

At home I had a half-mad mother whom I still live with. She was tyrannical and didn't have logical reasons for some of her actions. Now we don't have much of a relationship, I spend most of my time on the computer in my room, she spends most of her time watching TV downstairs. She's depressed also and has no friends, and very rarely goes out socially. She's also starting to increasingly lose her body and mind, which are degenerating daily.

I used to absolutely love Final Fantasy and video games in general and had a fantastic memory for things that interest me.

Now I don't. I feel like I'm severely depressed to the ponit where I can't remember how to have fun. I don't have any real life friends who understand me or care much about me, and I still hate being in crowds or big numbers of people, especially immature and unintelligent ones, which is irritating because I go to a college full of them. I don't enjoy going there and I don't learn much principally because I can learn what they teach in 90 minutes in 10 minutes, and I only need to give a s**t abotu things relevant to the exams.

The only person who I have any significant relationship with is my mother, and the relationship isn't particuarly healthy or helpful, and I don't have any friends or family I can go and live with or learn from.

Anyonegot a similar position or had similar experiences?

If you can do that, why do you feel unintelligent? If I were you, I'd learn the stuff for the exams and then read around the topics to make them a bit more interesting. Lectures may cover the basic material, but they will give you very little feel for the course.

Sound like your in depression. You and your mother should start seeking help. And also, play Final Fantasy IX. IX is great against depression, but not VII, VII is great but depressive.

Is there anyone at school like a counselor or who might know of any counselors to talk to? How about your doctor? Your mom, has she been in therapy or on meds in the past, because she definitely sounds like she needs one or both.

I feel really bad for you, I've been there and it sucks when you feel you're stuck in a hole and can't get out. Playing games is okay, but let's face it, you can't live your life in a game. I don't know where you are, but is there even a crisis hotline you can call?

Thanks for the replies. I posted this on a down of a mood swing, so it's probably a bit too negative than I am generally. I'm primarily pissed off and exhausted due to dealing with college and a lack of friends. I generally get on with my mother, I'm happy living with her usually. I want to magic up soem friends that I've known for a good few years and who I get on with.

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