Plywood, gtfo with that kind of talk. I suppose if you had a friend who was feeling suicidal you'd give them a gun and tell them to have fun? You might think posts like that are funny, but I don't think the OP does, and I don't think the OP's parents would think its funny if he actually followed your advice. Do yourself and everyone else a favor and remove your post. Mature a little bit, and then come back to The Haven if you so wish. Until then, we can do without your kind in this particular subforum
Oh, and SaNcheNuSS... As someone who has recently attempted to commit suicide, I can tell you that its not worth it. And I can almost guarantee that when the moment comes to do it, you'll want to back out(even if you honestly want to do it). And at that moment when every fiber of your being is screaming at you to stop, it's only so easy to ignore it for various reasons you'll use to brainwash yourself on the spot. Trust me, there is reasons for living. You're only 28. You shouldn't even be half way through your life. Ignore those who hate on you and do what makes you happy. I don't know whether you have aspergers or something else. But know that for those on the autistic spectrum, its not uncommon to feel overwhelmed by negative emotions.
You must also understand that even though what your mother said was harsh... she said it for a reason. Low self esteem tends to result in depression, depression tends to cause poor hygiene, poor hygiene tends to indirectly cause low self esteem, thus the cycle continues. If you can break any part of one of the many cycles of depression, its a step forward. Start showering daily and combing your hair. By some semi-casual button up shirts and some new pants. Start making yourself look good on a daily basis. I promise your self esteem will go up. More then likely girls will start smiling at you more often.
Also, exercise. Jog, do pushups, situps, whatever. If you have the money for it. Get a gym membership. That was the best decision I ever made in my life(regarding depression). Within a month of a high-protein diet and working out every day, I truly started to look forward to working out. All the endorphins helped me to feel happy, but more then anything, the results made me feel happy. If you really push yourself in the gym... ANYONE can get noticeable results within 3 weeks. Guaranteed. And even if you think you dont care about that sort of thing. I promise that when you have those results i'm talking about. Your self esteem will go up.
Whatever you do, just dont give up on life. If you do, then you're just giving more power to the haters
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