melbi wrote:
So my psychiatrist cut down the antidepressant (Pristiq) from 100mg to 50mg. Well, more like I requested for it...
and since then, I haven't been happy.
Even with a lot of attention from guys, I'm still not happy.
If one day, for only one day, that no guys talk to me on MSN, call me or ask me out for a date, then I went into a deep depressed state. like right now.
It's so stupid I know, why would I want so much attention anyway?
Yesterday I went out with a guy for the whole day. We went to do first aid/CPR course together, he treated me a nice dinner, we watched movies together, and we had some nice time on the bed. I kinda liked him. I went home at 10pm, talked to another guy online. This guy was gonna take me out for movie on the weekend, but then he cancelled it due to the flood. It's totally understandable.
Then I went into total depressed state. I mean WTF? I had a nice day with a guy I like, and I'm NOT HAPPY becoz the other guy cancelled a date? seriously WTF is my brain thinking :'(
It is good that you requested for a lower dose. This is the right move. You are going in the right direction. At first it may seem hard but you don't need the medication.
You have learned that being "happy" is by having attention from men. This is a learned behavior. You can also learn that you can be happy from understanding yourself. Try to learn about yourself through your emotions. True happiness lies in self acceptance and understanding.