Moog wrote:
It really depresses me.
The first time I read your OP, I thought the post was about someone in your life drinking and his or her drinking depresses you, then read through the replies and found different.
It's REAL easy for someone to say, don't do it.
, especially Legolas-types. But, apparently, most of your replies are from people who understand the posting rules - or at least read them and honor them. It depresses you, and that depression isn't just pyschological, alcohol has physical effects that compound depression. Only other drinkers or former drinkers are going to truly understand why you still drink when it depresses you. That's why AA meetings are so amazing. Other people around you may have a hard time with whatever behavior you show when you drink. Try not to get out of control, and try to stop drinking, but don't kickbox yourself if you jog off the path. If you're beating yourself up all the time, you may run into problems where you don't feel like you have ANYONE to go to. But you DO have you to go to.
I'm going through this right now with a friend, and it upsets me greatly to pop over to his house and find him drinking, I mean swilling directly from a fifth of cheap whiskey. I can only applaud him for buying the CHEAP whiskey. His counselor is doing him better than I am right now. It just pains me a lot to think he's poisoning himself and may go out driving and land himself in jail or worse.
I can't seem to find the hug emoticons, if I could I give ya a bunch of 'em! So, :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: but without any feely-ups.
It sounds silly and cliche, but it's true: you WILL get through this, you are alright, and you will be alright!
A forum like The Haven can be helpful, when people follow the rules. You handled it with more dignity than I could have.
Edit this post to add, check out "You Kill Me," a movie with Ben...whatshisname in it and who is it, Tea Leoni? It's about a professional contract killer who's having problems doing his job right because of the drinking. It's kind of a black comedy. Obviously you're not a professional contract killer, but you might identify with the character.