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I'm having a bad day today I'm very angry at the world. I punched my computer screen and busted it. I find out that it's probably $400 to repair and a week to get parts. I feel pretty stupid, but I do accept responsibility that I just lost it. I am getting it repaired. Now I have to go to the library to use the computer, but at least I have that.

I'm obsessing over the same girl again. I'm so angry because she is so full of BS. She used me. She lied to me. She won't take any responsibility. She somehow thinks she has some sort of lame ass right to not have me be angry at her. She invited me into her life then abruptly pushed me out. And I'm the one with problems? She doesn't taker any responsibility.

I'm starting to calm down now. It's just that sometimes I feel so all alone.

Hello WeirdPig! I like your picture by the way. I like animal avatars a lot (as you might have guessed).

I'm sorry you're having a bad day. I can sympathize actually. I get into really obsessive loops also. About really ridiculous things. I won't go into detail but I was just at what was a somber formal affair and I could not stop comparing myself to this girl there. Fortunately I could keep it together until we left but then I broke down crying and repeating the same desperate statement over and over again to my family members.

So yes, you are not alone! I can sympathize with a bad day! I feel a lot better now, you know - I don't know if you can will yourself to cry but if you need some kind of catharsis there's not much better than having a crying fit like I just had!

Please try to relax if you can for your own sake. What you are obsessing about (the girl), if my experience is any indication, will at a later point when you're looking back seem like a silly thing for you to have obsessed over. Not that the girl is trivial in herself but that the (negative-minded) obsession is fruitless and pointless.

Hopefully you will start feeling better soon!

Hey there

You are not alone my friend , I was obsessed with a lady and let her into my life , within 3 months she had me flat broke and made me lose my job. She cheated on me , luckily for my schizophrenia I caught her out and completely withdrew , I also punch things when I get Angry, two weeks ago I punched a mirror And the nail that was it was hanging from went into my hand , I will never hit a person it is not within me ,its very hard for us if people don't get what we are saying even though we think they are , they tend to decieve us in life and take us for granted meanwhile we are better off without them. Our constant yearning for love acceptance and understanding will be the downfall of us ,but it is not our fault that we are different to other people. I wish I could have more advice for you ... Just know you are better than the rest and better wivout them

Hi WeirdPig:

Glad you could come here to vent. Feels better to get it off your chest?

May I make one suggestion? Think about getting a new computer monitor instead of fixing it. You could buy a 24" widescreen monitor for around $280. Better than paying $400 and waiting for them to fix it.

I can sympthaize with your problem with your girlfriend. Sounds like my first wife. There is nothing you can do about some people. They just act that way.

The best thing you can do for yourself is to let go by distracting your mind. Hang out in this forum, take up a hobby or whatever that will occupy your mind. Then the obession will fade with time.

I know your just venting here. But from someone that has been there and done that, I thought I would suggest a couple of things

Sorry to hear about your computer screen... I know how that can be, and how obsessions can be, unfortunately. I'm still not over mine, unfortunately. He still takes up way too much of my time, and at this point it pisses me off.

Hope things get better for you soon. I wish I had good advice but i know from experience that none of it works anyway so I'll save my keystrokes.

~Kate

Hey there

You are not alone my friend , I was obsessed with a lady and let her into my life , within 3 months she had me flat broke and made me lose my job. She cheated on me , luckily for my schizophrenia I caught her out and completely withdrew , I also punch things when I get Angry, two weeks ago I punched a mirror And the nail that was it was hanging from went into my hand , I will never hit a person it is not within me ,its very hard for us if people don't get what we are saying even though we think they are , they tend to decieve us in life and take us for granted meanwhile we are better off without them. Our constant yearning for love acceptance and understanding will be the downfall of us ,but it is not our fault that we are different to other people. I wish I could have more advice for you ... Just know you are better than the rest and better wivout them

Yeah, dude, you're not alone. Had a similar situation with a girl two years ago. Yanked me into her life, forced me into quite a few couple-y situations(like grabbing my arm when I tried to leave before watching a Youtube video with her, or making me share her mac & cheese for lunch in the cafeteria), yet it was my fault when everyone thought we were a couple, because they could see the way I felt about her. Then, I was cut out of her life for it. Broke my foot kicking a wall(I knew not to punch it, because I already broke my hand doing that!), and it took me quite a while to really get over her. Now she thinks I'm stalking her because I went to her new job because they had a sale on soda. Trust me, if there's a crazy girl involved, I can sympathize.

Only advice I can give you is to try and avoid hitting things in anger. Or at least choose soft things. $400 is bad enough, but you don't want to break anything and have to pay hospital bills for it.

Yes, the punch was an expensive one at that. I found a friend that could repair the computer for nothing, but not until next week, and an used screen for $130. Beats $400.

I am working very hard on not being so reactive. The obsession had been better until the last few days. Something set me off (which I wish not to disclose here). I realize that which set me off was a coincidence and really nothing to worry about.

A friend who I hadn't talked to for almost 4 years called me out of the blue last night. It was a serendipitous event which made things better. I'd been thinking about this friend a lot lately, so it was a surprise when she called.

Thanks for everyone's responses and support. I am doing better

I'm glad that you're feeling better. We all have bad days, sometimes.

How much smoother the world would run if everyone had accountability!

I'm sorry you busted your screen. We all do things like that from time to time, acting before thinking. It sucks.

I used to loose it a lot more than I do now. I'd punch holes in walls and my parents would punish me. Finally with the help of a family counselor, my dad stopped punishing me. Instead, he held me accountable. I needed to go to the hardware store and get materials to fix the walls. Then I needed to fix them. I learned a lot about carpentry from that too. Before that, my dad always fixed things for me. My dad has always seemed to do things for me. It was hard for him to let go sometimes. Even to this day, I still need to tell him to bud-out from time to time.