I just wrote "goodbye" in my class conference. I don't plan on returning to school, although it's only 3 months before it ends. I'm clinically depressed and cannot think of anything but suicide. I can't socialize at all because of severe depression, anxiety, and asperger's, and it doesn't seem to get better. I dreamt of becoming a surgeon or an engineener, but I suppose those ideas just died out. I've never had a friend, never been at a party, a class birthday, class trip or anything. I'm such a loser. Why bother getting an education or even keep living if nothing will ever improve, and life will always spit me in the face?
What could possibly be worth living for when I don't have any friends, good family relations or a girlfriend and never will achieve any of this? It's pointless. No reason to earn money for nothing...
Asperger's syndrome = loser's syndrome. I'm starting to believe it's true. At least for me it is. I'm a useless loser =( Can't establish and keep relationships... can't even finish school... pathetic =/
My life is a bottomless pit. FML.