Feel like killing people

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Dude, you are still not accomplishing anything by posting here. Go get help! At the rate you are going, you are gong to wonder why everyone is getting married besides you. You will wonder why everybody id having families but you. You will one day wonder how divorced people were able to find a second marriage (and in some cases even a bit on the side as well before that) and you are all alone. If you sit on your ass bitching on an internet forum long enough, someday you will wonder why everyone gets to boast about the accomplishments of their families, their wife's career, their kids' new careers and families now that they are out of college, and their new grandkids. When your relatives are all dead and gone you will be alone in a nursing home and never had a relationship. Even if you have a stellar career, it will be meaningless on your deathbed. Only medical professionals who are paid to be there will be around you unless you request a chaplain. There will be no graveside memorial an no one will remember you.

What are you doing here? Do you have no desire to live life? This is turning into another angry whiny virgin thread, so you need to either get help or be at peace with your situation because you are not helping yourself or the forum at the rate you are going! If you are not going to take initiative to address your difficulties, you might as well go get a lifetime subscription for WoW.

You are a sad, strange little man, and you have my pity. - Buzz Lightyear

Go see a psychologist some therapeutic sessions could be good for venting and also receiving some feedback on your thoughts.
Ask for a female psychologist so that you could get some insight as you discuss your well-being.
I don't know what relationship others have with their psychologist/psychiatrists but I only have a psychiatrists that I see 2 times a month. And even tho her main function is to ask "How do you feel?" and prescribe drugs. I use the hour I have to vent and try to find solutions to my many thoughts.
From the start she told me to see a psychologist but I declined and I've been seeing her for a year now and it works great.
I got a heap of medication prescribed at first but now I'm only on one. Figuring that I've never needed Meds in my entire life and you only get hooked on them and then whine like a little b***h when you run out (not to mention the hazardous toll it takes on your brain when you're out).

Mostly all you need is to talk and get s**t off your chest.

Don't go killing anyone, rage and misery can make one spiral down into very dark depths.

Good luck and stuff. Feel better. Don't be so angry.

women like men who make them feel safe and honestly, considering your state of mind, no sane women would want to even be in the same room as you right now. Having fantasies of rape and murder is not appealing to women at all and you will not attract any potential girlfriend untill you stop being so hateful. Get some serious help and then, when you've worked through your issues, you can start worrying about dating. And you should know this: rejection is part of life. Weither you're applaying for a new job or to a new school or asking someone out on a date, rejection is a possible outcome. If you don't learn to handle rejection and setbacks, you'll never accomplish anything in your life.

Do not even consider dating when you have Aspergers and other severe psychiatric issues. There are lots of angry people with Aspergers.

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I think you need help and I hope that you get the right kind of help.

You not really going to kill these people. You just wish you could.
You are only thinking the same way that I have been thinking lately, making claims that you're going to kill the people that have wronged you.

I had an online girlfriend about a year ago, she was a b***h and flirted with other guys while ignoring me and f**ked with my mind by telling me she was a Lycan.
I dumped her one year ago, because she ignored me and flirted with other guys, and I was scared as hell for a really long time that maybe she wanted to kill me because she said she was a Lycan that eats people.

I am still feeling resentful about her to this very day, and very angry. It's like I have PTSD from it all.
I keep thinking about doing horrible things to her, and it really disgusts me and angers me and scares me.

Of course, I would never do any of these things, never, ever.
But, sometimes when I'm angry, I say out loud to myself that I will do these things, but I'm not serious, I'm just trying to ventilate and calm myself down.
Of course, it upsets me that justice will never arise. She will never be punished for what she did to me, and she will probably live a happy life, and that really pisses me off, because I 'want' her to die horribly and suffer greatly. I wanna kill people too for all the injustice they commit, but I will never do it, because it won't solve anything, and frankly the idea of actually hurting people disgusts me and makes me feel very sick.

I never want fall for another girl ever again. She ripped my heart to pieces, and I never get over anything, and I never forget, and I never feel better.
It's better to be alone for the rest of my life than to be with any girl at all.
I am never putting up with the bull**** that a woman puts a guy through ever again.
Hell, I don't even want to ever have friends, I'd rather just be alone, it's better this way.

Dude, OP, you don't even know what you're asking to get into.
You do NOT want a girlfriend!
Especially not with your state of mind, which seems much like my own.
Your libido is playing tricks with your mind!

It's not worth it going through all the emotional pain over some nice soft T n' A and the false bliss of a girl's adoration.
The cons far out weigh the pros of having a girlfriend.

Trust me, if you ever do get a girlfriend, you'll regret it later, and you will wish you never had a girl liking you in the first place.
Sure it's fun at first, once you think you are all hers and you think she is all yours.... but this is rarely RARELY the case that a couple can belong to each other so easily forever, especially with people that have Autism.

I, for one, wish I were still a virgin, and I wish I never had any online girlfriends, or the real one that I had for several years when I was 15-21 years old.
I wish I never got laid and fell in love. The side effects are very steep, especially for someone like myself.

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this thread is disturbing. ''Shove a machete up her vagina'', seriously what the f?

That is anger and frustration talking and a poor dash of gory imagination.

LOL, sorry about that, my bad, didn't mean to disturb you.
I have some anger issues myself, I was just trying to relate to the OP and trying to help.
I should be more careful what I say, I can be pretty explicit with details most times.
Yeah I'm kinda embarrassed now, I'm gonna leave...

Whoa, what I said actually gave me bad nightmares, now I'm shaken.
I really regret thinking such angry thoughts, and now feel very sick in my stomach because of my poor imagination.
I don't even want to think of hurting people, it scares the crap outta me after that Hellish dream I had last night that I was seeking demons in Hell and stuff.
I won't even go into detail about the dream, it was pretty gnarly, and you might be disturbed by it.
Sorry for my rudeness, very sorry.

I keep wanting to go and chat random women up, but I'm afraid they might all either be taken or not looking for a man right now. (Notwithstanding lesbians.)

Why must it be so difficult for me? Why the f**k did I have to be born Aspie and not NT, goddamn it?

Bars, night clubs and brothels. There are many places you can find a drunken girl or buy a prostitute for your fun.

Then do it. I guess you want to do it but you have never tried before, so you need practice with your interaction.

If they are taken they will probably tell you.

If they're not looking for a partner you will notice that she's not eagerly engaging in conversation nor being humorous/open minded.

Most important thing is to know that girls will not kill you and neither will rejection.

Just go talk to them...


I've been friends with many timid "nerdy/quiet" guys in school, and they have the same problems as Aspies when it comes to talking "chances", talking to girls.



Do you have any women in your family? Mother, Sisters?
They can help if you ask them. + If you can talk to your mother you can talk to any girl. No sweat...

Exactly! Now if the OP really thinks there is a chance he will act on his desire literally, it is his duty to seek professional help. In the mean time we are all supposed to be amateur help for each other, not destroy each other. The fact that the OP is crying out shows that he is not bereft of a sense of right and wrong but simply a tormented person.

My mom. I would count my sister out, since there's a 15-year gap between us and thus she's too young to understand this s**t.

I even tried talking to a trusted female coworker about it. I may talk to her some more, or leave an open letter consisting of one long, angry screed telling everyone there about this f*****g s**t.