scale of -10 to +10, how do you feel right now?

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Beth Hugs!

I hope you feel better girly, I'll pray for you.

-10 everything is going to hell....and I wish people would quit trying to make me feel like sh*t for the type of person I am, especially certain people like my moms boyfriend who should get it through his thick skull that NO i don't want a goddamn credit card, I dont think capitalism is nessisary and he's got no right to try to tell me what kind of life I should live.

-9

Got a packet of papers in the mail from Victim/Witness services and it brought back bad memories. Plus, I spent Thanksgiving alone in my apartment because my mother blew me off at the last minute and I'd turned down another invitation earlier, so I could see her. Sometimes it's very sobering to think how alone I am and how little support network I really have.

+4

So fricking satisfied.

-10. Holidays suck. Booo.

-10

-6, grrr...sometimes I wish I had no emotions and did not give a crap about anything.

-5

-10

If only she knew.

0

I've gotten rid of emotions years ago, the only one I really still feel, is being annoyed.

-10 x 2

You killed the only other part of me.
I have nothing but watching ailment take hold to all I have left.
That's just more pain.
The only other choice is a bullet to the brain (don't worry, I have too much work to do for that dying last piece of me).
That's the difference between you and me (it's easy to replace me).
You were the only element that made anything right.

Not a plea for anything,
as you're just as dead now as me (things cannot go back).
These are just the words of a man-boy with nothing,
wondering how you could do this to me.

Kinda like those first few words between you and me, just real,
it's all gone, forever.

I've bled for you,
though even with my very life, that's more than anyone will ever give,
it wasn't enough to you.

Your god hates me,
and I don't know why.
He's taken away all that can make me fly
and he promises even more in lore.

Back to hell, pain and drowning for me.
I hope you enjoy the air up there in heaven (I really do),
just know that I was a discarded step that helped you get there.

I'll feel, say and do the same in 50 years,
and that's another difference between me and you.

I'm sure I deserve it.

^ Things will get better bro.

I'm a 5 or thereabouts. Kinda worried about the new neighbours, and whether the family will like my cat.

veering dangerously from minuses to plusses and back again.

I don't know.
Overwhelmed.

+3

I've been feeling like complete s**t for the past few days and it's about time I at least got a moment of relaxation.

+5 Been a busy day programming but I'm happy.