Ive been there, I still am sort of there, though Ive stopped self-harming for a good year or something. Yeah its hard, you feel utter crap and you just want to give up but this feeling is temporary, it will go away, suicide? Thats forever. Are you on any medication? I know that my meds have helped stabilise me, so the bad feelings arent as bad. Its cliche; but things do get better, youll learn to cope, get motivated and feel some sort of happiness again. You just have to get over this hurdle, and when you do, its completely worth it.
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