I give up

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It is so painful witnessing people slowly disregard you as a potential friend, seeing women gradually lose attraction until it is replaced by dislike.
I am an unlikeable person, I'm too weird and unable to relate to others. What is the point of anything without people to share it with?
My anxiety is too crippling, my psyche is warped by years of profound loneliness, romance isn't even a part of my life.
I truly am a head case.

I can kinda relate to this, I always seem to screw up friendships and intimate relationships. But right now I am kinda freaking out about the fact I'm 22 and I feel like my life thus far has mostly been a waste. I mean this is probably the only life I have and I feel like I'm just wasting it. But I also feel like if I just go for it and live my life it will result in disaster because I probably have horrible judgement an unhealthy amount of pessimism and though I have good intentions I usually fail at carrying them out.

But yeah I can relate to the loneliness. I wish I had some advice but I'm not doing to amazingly myself.

I've felt this way as well. I have hobbies and all that, but really find a lot of things like material possessions worthless without anybody to share experiences with. While I have had moderate trouble befriending others in person, often masking myself with humor, I've felt I could connect with people a lot more online, especially one on one. It's not exactly the same, but perhaps you could find a few internet friendships with value regardless of the difference. As for those who become disinterested, they probably are not worth your company.

The only thing I struggle with now is relationship problems. I guess that, even if it hurts to hide my feelings from her, if I can still at least talk to the person I like, I can get by for now. Maybe I will eventually move on if I take enough of her as just viewing me as a friend. I've tried talking with others in a much more care free way and "leaving things open" is one way I'd put it, I suppose. Try to be less picky or high strung and just have fun.

I know how it feels and the feeling of after I was diagnosed at 45/46 and looking back and missing out on everything my peers have had and feeling like a waste of a life-I have never been in a relationship and really have no friends I could count on like others count on me.

I feel like I have wasted some of my life too, specifically the time I spent anxiously trying to be sociable in a way that conformed to expectation. I feel it was a pointless dead end, and I might be more content now, had I been focussing more on my interests.

For any person there seems to exist a subset of all people that would like that person, or enjoy their company. I admit that for me that appears to be a small subset, and it is a smaller set that I also like. So, I should not get on with the majority of people that I meet, and I am comforted by my experiences reflecting that.