Being happy is draining...

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If I'm happy I usually end up crashing later. I honestly feel like I'm insane or something, when I'm happy I get all these idealistic bullsht plans and I probably come off as weird/crazy, when depressed I shut down completely..
Sometimes I wonder if people don't like me too, I met this really cool Japanese couple the other night and we partied all night, exchanged emails etc. I just hope they like me and want to spend time together... I just feel so empty right now, I want to hold someone, really I want a girl who is also lonely and lost...
I think I'll go to a valentines party tonight.. gotta keep my chin up... basically just salvaging my life right now... don't know what was the point of this little rant.

Can't take these mood swings.. fck...
That couple I met, I have a huge crush on the girl. Her name's Miho... Miho-chan...
I am defective.

Maybe give yourself permission to be sad (or angry, or depressed, or worried, or whatever). Happiness is the the only human emotion that society tolerates, but it is NOT an appropriate response to many situations.

I think it can vary quite a bit.

I feel fine now...

That's perfectly normal, if you force yourself into social situations in attempt to find social validation or joy, you will find yourself tired and emotionally drained. Remember, as people on the spectrum, we tend to analyze social situations far more than others so our thought process tends to be working more so instead of relaxing, we are processing everything around us which leads to a burn out or crash.

For instance, when you are emailing these girls, you are analyzing their approval, analyzing whether they like you or not, you really aren't allowing your mind time to relax and just go with it. If you are at a party or in a social situation, take a time out if you become overwhelmed, that will definitely help to refocus and realize how you're feeling before you end up burning out.