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Every positive outcome I've ever heard concerning an aspie has involved some degree of support, usually from family. However, I have no support. Not from a group of friends, not from family, not from any institution, not from the government.
I have one friend, and he is in no position to offer me any type of support. I get anti-autism abuse from my family, as I have done since childhood, and my official diagnosis has done nothing to change that. I have been searching for employment almost a year, and even with all of London to search from I still cannot find a job. I have perfect GCSEs and A-Levels and a degree from Cambridge, but every job advert I see states that years of experience are essential, even for entry level positions. My aspergers is not recognised as a disabling factor, so I barely receive enough money from the government to travel for interviews and eat.

I just want to know if there's anyone out there who has no support, and has never had support, but still lives what they consider a happy life.

Dear Torpenhow,

I didn't have support. Then I changed. Then I did.

No one supported me, not really - if people did mentally, they didn't show it. Yet I grew by watching movies, reading countless books, and listening to music that gradually became more and more meaningful. I learned the morals that I have now from TV and music and books. I see where others went wrong, and I try to do otherwise.

I'm not sure on the specifics, but at one point my personality changed (through many losses, a big betrayal, and my forgiveness of that same one) enough so that I started to get a couple of people to... believe in me. To think that I had a great future, or that I was someone to associate with, because I would do well, if not financially then spiritually/mentally/emotionally, and let's face it, everyone experiences that at some point, spiritual/mental/emotional strife, and I guess I'd be a go-to person, or someone to help, or even someone to be helped. I'm not sure, but... I can make connections with a few special people now, and they support me, and I'm happy. I found that meeting and interacting with certain people made me happier than gaining their support or friendship or whatever in the end, because those people changed me for the better.

So I guess this is more of an emotional answer: I found connections because of myself, not because of support, and now this has -become- a system of support. Therefore, I experienced this: Starting from nowhere, I made something by myself, and now that something supports me, but it leads back to what I did... I made myself happier in that way. And I'm still trying to attain true happiness, and I'm actually making progress in that.

I hope I helped in some way,
ArtemisHolmes

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