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I spoke to soon one a half hours sleep last night.

Nearly done with the first course of medications really don't have urges to drink during the day just at night when I cant sleep.
Haven't touched a drop and its ten foot away in the cupboard.

All most slipped up had it poured till I realized what I was doing poured all I had left down the drain.

Yay, i think i've finally gotten to the point where smoking weed has become more effort than it's worth.

When i first tried weed back when i was about 16 i remember feeling that i just wanted to get the experience over and get back to feeling in control. Then i tried it again when i was 23 and because of various changes in my life the experience became much better and i actually started to prefer being stoned to reality.

Steadily over the last few years though i've been getting closer and closer to giving up as my tolerance has built up and ive got less and less from the experience,. The last few months and i think im really really starting to get annoyed with it and the feeling of being clear headed and not having had any has been getting preferable to the half stoned that seems to be my norm these days. Finally today i had plenty of money to spare, i went to the place i buy from, i gave the guy my money, got my weed, then i changed my mind and got my money back and instead went and bought a load of chocolate/munchies instead. That's really good for me, for me to choose nice food over getting stoned is a real step and possibly signals a real change in my attitude towards it. It just doesn't seem worth it anymore.

Rx has run out I am fine so far no urge to drink but getting depressed don't know if its the drugs wearing off or just life beating me down. I hate life right now. Vacation is coming up soon and I hope it helps if it doesn't don't know what Ill do.

Sorry needed to vent have no one here at home I can talk to about this type problem.

[quote="johnny77"]Rx has run out I am fine so far no urge to drink but getting depressed don't know if its the drugs wearing off or just life beating me down. I hate life right now. Vacation is coming up soon and I hope it helps if it doesn't don't know what Ill do.

Sorry needed to vent have no one here at home I can talk to about this type problem.[quote="johnny77"]

I forget that you are even human some times. Why would I even think you could even die you have ben stabbed,shoved out a third story window, starved, frozen, threw from a moving car, heck you have even ran in to a light pole at 120 on motor cycle and all ways walk away you dont even have scars cause the way you heal. If you could hold your first girl friends hand as she lay dieing what could be bugging you so bad now. Is it because you couldnt make yore breakfast with out crushing the eggs as you got them out of the carton. Because you body is showing some wear now you're sad. You have on heck of a gardian angle and you're sad. You the one Ive watched go to 3 funerals for suicides of friends Why you would even entertain the idea I dont get you at all. You can talk to me about any thing You know this so what you mean no one at home to talk to.

Dry done with all drugs Rx or not still cant sleep but hope that will pass on its own.

I sometimes use alcohol as a way to relieve stress and be able te sleep. In some heavily stressed periods getting slightly drunk at night has helped me through, it isn't ALL bad. Not healthy, but otherwise I would've crashed earlier. I do watch myself however, I never get actually drunk, nor do I enjoy that, and any form of addiction is the last thing I want.

That's good at least you're sleeping. Life sucks sometimes and that's what this forum is for.

I went to NA when I was 20 with my parents, everyone else was like 40, it was really embarrassing but it helped me stay clean because of the guilt. Didn't help the depression though.

It was nice drinking a bit last night after not drinking for a few days, I think the less I drink the better.