NeueZiel wrote:
-3.2
Feel bad, haven't been able to concentrate on ANYTHING for a week and money has been low so we haven't had much food in the house and I haven't been able to go jog for a week. It feels like its been a month. For once I actually feel like playing some games, I can't focus on reading for some reason, which is odd, but as luck would have it the internet signal has been finicky ever since I moved to my old room. The only games I want to play require me to logon to Steam, which my internet refuses to do without taking forever (and then kicking me). I can barely stay online long enough to do anything in the GW2 weekend beta and I can't patch the PTR for WoW. First world problems here, but its just annoying the hell out of me because I feel so bad. Normally I can read, paint or do something semi-productive but for awhile I just have been in this terrible slump, CAN'T leave the house and I've probably said less than a paragraph's worth of words to my parents in over a week. I actually tried talking to my Mom but gave up and went back to my room. A time like this is perfect for playing some mindless grindy game I wouldn't bother with. I'm to the point where the sight of the sun irritates me now so I took a blanket and made some makeshift curtains to make it dark 24/7 in my room.
All I feel like doing is sleeping or browsing this forum or reading X-entertainment or bogleech (when they load). It was a bit more manageable yesterday but today I just feel really scared and threatened, its a paranoia thing. I keep feeling the urge to talk but then think "Oh what is there to say? You'll just bother people.". The situation at home HAS been pretty dire but thankfully its just money and my parents aren't sick anymore (neither am I, after 2 weeks of suffering and all the NyQuil and cough drops to fill a third world country). Yesterday was a lot more manageable actually, I was a 0. Blank, but didn't feel too bad.
Happy to hear you are doing better.
I am a 1 billion, just listened to the new Passion Pit album and zoned out into eternal bliss.