Does anyone feel like you want to take to your bed forever?

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I know this sounds like a dreadful thing to say, but does anyone else here wish you could become an invalid and just go to bed for the rest of your life? And if you want to talk to people, they'd just have to come into your room and sit on your bed and just have a normal social interaction going on, or you just go online on your laptop and talk to people. Or if you're not bothered about socialising, just never do it.
I feel like this a lot. I just want to sleep and get my mind lost in films and forget about society. Although it sounds so easy, I'm still afraid I might get to the point where I can't cope with the pressure of life and conformity and just reduce to this. I will miss out on the outside world, the lovely trees and the flowers and the butterflies and everything else, which wouldn't be so good but on the plus side I wouldn't have to impress anyone ever again, only the people who come round and care to chat with me still.

Not that I really want to do this, but sometimes I feel like it. Is this depression, or anxiety? I think this can be normal, because I was speaking to an NT the other day who has quite a stressful life, and even she said she sometimes wishes she could take to her bed and not have to deal with any of life's stress.

I think I know how you feel. I always get this feeling that it's so tiring to be around people and I always get it so wrong, that it would be easier for the people around me to not have to deal with my weirdness, and I wish I could just turn off my phone and lock myself in my room and just stop...

I know a lot of this is because I suffer from bad depression but I think sometimes I find it so hard to interact with people that it seems easier to give up.

Kind of, but not to my bed. I find being an invalid to be a dull lifestyle. I just would rather retreat from society and be in a better world. Kind of like Alice in Wonderland, I guess. But it probably would involve less talking rabbits.

I don't ever want to be an invalid, but I do sometimes want to go to prison. I would have a lot of time to draw and read, which I rarely do now even though I want to. I would also feel like I've accomplished something with my life, depending on why I was incarcerated.

i would sleep 24 hours a day but my back won't let me.

I'm actually doing this because of some illness thing at the moment...
Being a recluse isn't all that great and personally I can tell you probably wouldn't cope with it...
Besides, would you really want to miss out on going on buses which is your special interest, to be in your room all the time?
Plus it would be seen as you not giving a damn about anyone else even if it's not true.

Me too. Dreams are about the only fun I have.

I have gone through this in the past. it was just after high school and I had a total mental breakdown because of the abuse I had absorbed. Nowadays, I kind of am confined to my bedroom voluntarily because I simply do not have enough energy to do much more than go to work and lay in bed. I have things that need doing but I just can't seem to motivate myself to do any of it because either I get overwhelmed by it all, I feel too tired, or it is too hot outside (95 degrees with 90% humidity will do that).

That's the reason why I wouldn't want to do it, even if the thought sounds inviting. I love my family and my friends, and I love getting the buses and seeing my sweetheart (that, unless they put the service into FirstGroup), and I love bright, sunny days with that fresh spring/summer air and the butterflies and the grass, and everything else beautiful outside. The only thing that's not beautiful are all the stares I get from women in their 60s, and young girls (don't ask why women in their 60s have such an offensive obsession about me). Also I just find society rather frightening, and sometimes feel I don't want to be a part of it, and knowing I'm not ever going to retire when I'm old just puts the dampers on me (they're going to keep raising the retirement age until it reaches 200, I reckon ).

Realistically I would like to take to my bed the whole time snow is on the ground (unless it's a little flurry that only covers the grass and melts away within 1 to 2 days). But these days, the UK keep getting snow every winter, and everybody freaks out and acts like 6 inches of snow is like 20 inches of snow, and almost clear out all the supermarkets in a panic for food, as though they think we're all going to be snowed in for months. Pathetic!
Oh, and I hate snow because people laugh at me if I slip on the ice, even if my foot just slips a bit but is hardly noticeable, people still seem to think it's hilarious.

Sweet Pea hugs

then you'd really like www.dreammoods.com
also the various dream threads right here on wrongplanet.

I think, irrationally, we all would love to do that, but realistically we can't and we all know that it wouldnt be good for us anyways. Even the extrovertest of people could say 'yea I would love to just take to my bed and wont have to impress anyone or do anything!' So it's quite normal to think like that, but in your condition you are probably thinking this through anxiety/depression lens.
Have you ever seen Stuart Little 2? I admire the way Margalo says to Stuart 'just walking out that door is an adventure', and she is right. Just think of life like that. The next time you go out of your front door, think 'OK, here's an adventure', even if it means just nipping up the road to a shop or something, still consider it an adventure.
Also, you are not worse than everybody else. People are not judging you, and I know you're high-functioning and self-aware, young girls look at eachother all the time, Im Nt and I even have girls in their teens and 20s glare at me, its probablly nothing personal. And women in their 60s are the least to judge you, they just have a habit of staring at others without realising it too much, probably because they have gone past the menopause and perhaps getting on for old age, and its another stage in life, and you know how people are when going through a different stage in life. Toddlers are annoying, teenagers are annoying, and people near to old age are annoying.
Also I don't think First Group will take on your bus service, I won't say out loud here what you PM'd me but a big bus service like that will not stop nor go into First Group when the are cutting back bus services and drivers themselves. Your favourite bus company are most likely working out how to keep the services going.
And lastly, have you actually experienced people physically laughing at you when you slipped on ice? If you just slip a little, people don't really notice. They are too busy trying not to slip themselves.

Hope this all helped a bit.

Yeah I agree that the panicing is very much pathetic until it occurs.
Your not the only one who slips on ice and snow whilst people laugh and look at you... I get it too.
Also you said you do not want to be a part of society because it scares you, Well, I do not want to be a part of society because I personally dislike it myself but I am not scared of it.