Love you too, Dad.

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So I'm having a great day. I'm in a good mood, one of my favorite shirts is clean, I have to do homework for college but it's not that big of a deal.

Dad comes in and starts to berate me for not doing the dishes, among other comments. Yes Dad I know Mom and I live in a messy apartment, yes I know we should clean up more, yes I am aware that I am completely useless around the house and if I was to get my own house/apartment right now I would fail and end up crawling back to you and Mom.

I am clearly aware that I basically fail at f*****g life.

I don't need you to take jabs at my piss poor self-esteem and constantly remind me.

I also REALLY didn't need you to ask me "Do you mind living in clutter?" and when I answer yes because a little clutter doesn't bother me, for you to say that you'll never talk about it again and give me a f*****g condescending pat on my back. Do you have any idea how much that just f*****g hurt me? It's like you're saying "Oh well since she doesn't mind then I guess there's nothing I can do about it."

I know I fail at life Dad. And I'm sorry I can't be what you want me to be.

Love you too.

If you don't mind me asking, are your parents divorced?

I find what your dad said really rude. People have said things that have hurt me.

I'm learning how to cook in school. I don't like eating. I loathe putting food and drinks in me. So naturally, I hate cooking. I finished cutting bread and a staff members walks in and said "Did you touch the bread or did you rip it?"

The best thing to do is not let what other people say get to you or get the best of you. Everybody gets hurt. You are not alone.

i'm messy and i don't fail at life.

Sounds kind of like my Dad

My Dad used to do this sort of thing all the time, he has a really short temper. In his mind, he was just being hard on me because he wanted me to be productive and responsible. Later on in life, when I was diagnosed with AS he realized that I had a cognitive disorder that was legitimately inhibiting my day to day life.

Now he takes a different approach when telling me he wants me to do something. Maybe your Dad just doesn't understand how AS affects you.