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Xuluwuki
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03 Jun 2013, 8:00 am

So this is my sad college experience: I went to university to pursue a degree in civil engineering. All was fine but I had noisy neighbors at the dorm, I asked to put me elsewhere, they (university housing service) did. I still had noisy neighbors but they weren't that loud so managable. I also found the math too challenging and stressed me out. Then on one night a horrific disco party was thrown... 50 yards from my dorm :evil: . I couldn't sleep, became frustrated and had a meltdown. When I was screaming from agony and my roommate woke up she found me with 2 knives. Then I went berserk and attacked the party. But before I could cut the bass cable campus security found me and I was thrown out.

Fortunately there was one less known college that accepted me. Now I'm doing undergrad IT. I really enjoy the courses and I'm passionate about networking but it turns out that college has bad reputation. And I was wondering whether I would get a job with it. I try to do my best and learn alot so I won't be branded as wannabe IT guy. I'm just concerned. I feel somewhat disappointed sometimes because I'm aspie and I should be inspired by numbers but I'm not. It makes me feel like a failure not having finished engineering. However talent-wise IT really fits me. I've been programming since I was 14. I know a variety of languages and I'm really good at it.

I don't know why I tell this and why so late because summer finals are almost done but it just feels good to vent my feelings.



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03 Jun 2013, 9:21 am

I am so sorry that you have had to suffer. *hugs*

It has been said by many wise thinkers that everything happens for a reason. Perhaps your failures are the universe's way of showing you what you were meant to do; perhaps you having to change colleges is the universe's way of putting you where you need to be-- maybe you can be the one to change your college's reputation by becoming something wonderful. Regardless of what you construe of faith, there is always good to be found in any situation.

Also, many aspies are not math-oriented; many aspies have cognitive patterns similar to Nonverbal Learning Disorder (Verbal IQ much higher than Logical/Performance IQ).

In any case, best of luck to you in your future endeavors.