sometimes i wonder if the only solution is the final one.

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its just harder and harder. i have drifted so far away from who i am and the possiblility of health seams more and more remote. i am starting to wonder the way out of my dilema is the decesion that cant be undone. they gave me the means a giant box of tranquilizers. i dont want to and it goes against my religion but it starting to seam like its the only way to find peace.

If you don't want to, that should be reason enough to stay. If you need a place to go to, you can use WP anytime you like.

Also, try finding something to take your mind of those tranquilizers (WP again)

suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem.

Tell us what the problems are. Make a list so we can all help you and go through them. Get things clear.

Couldn't have said it better myself...even if I was sober right now.

the problem massive over dose, low drug tolerance, i have reache my lifetime psych drug tolerance

omg.. please hang on!! !
I was put on lithium in the early 90's .. i know what you mean it really screws with your head - big time!! ! ((specially if you don't need it)) .. i agree with the poster who said we know our own bodies better than some frikkin entity that's never been "in" my body! .. grr .. i think it is a serious infringement of your basic human rights for any court to impose meds on anyone like this!! ! absolutely disgusting!
I at least had the option to flush their poison!! ! it isnt 'recommended' .. but hell .. it was killing me! ..
Anyway .. you are absolutely right .. psychiatry is an imperfect science .. they Need to listen to people who Know - and that is You. You (i) may not know what you need (yet) .. but it is pretty fair to say that after being on a med you DON"T need - You know it! ... I agree they are poisoning you .. your dilemna is that it is court ordered .. so .. what to do ..
Well .. you feel/think or believe they are killing you - DON"T help them do it! Please try to hang on .. drink lots of water .. learn what foods provide healthy natural detoxification .. that way you can maybe purge some of the poison and they won't have a clue you're doing it! ..
I don't really give a crap about the system .. psychiatry .. whatever .. I don't know you .. but I do care that you survive this .. and as unscarred as possible. There are already too many of us being guinea pigged and put on meds that are harmful .. because "they" don't know s**t! .. WE Must survive to Educate "them" .. so that future Aspies may take their Rightful places - Ruling The World!
... sorta jesting (a bit) .. but please hang on .. i need you ... seriously .. this aspies is still fairly new to me .. and when i read letters like yours i breathe a sigh of relief .. not happy you're struggling .. but relieved to know there is a reason .. a name for my own struggle .. a place to 'start' .. i really do need you .. i need to read your words .. if for no reason other than to know .. You "get" me. .. I read your words .. and i know you understand me .. i need that .. its been missing from my life for almost 50 years.. so please hang on .. and f**k Them!

Thanks for writing..

Unfortunately, to me, that makes it more appealing.

hyperion how's it going man?

That is a remarkable statement..

seen that statement a million times. it aint helping anybody.

overdosing on tranqs is a very bad idea. 'succeeding' or not is based on chance. something like that should not be left to chance. especially since surviving an overdose may make things worse.

if you cant get your minds off the tranqs you should just ask somebody to keep them for you, or tell whomever gave you them that its a bad idea for you to have so many.

whats keeping you from acquiring peace a more conventional way? i bet it improves with time anyway...so just hang on. dont cut yourself short, give yourself the opportunity to bloom, time will improve things slowly, try to find what you like in life and seek these things up. you could probably ask others to help you with that. just ignore the nasty stuff, negativity feeds off of negativity, and it'll just pull you in. just ignore it and and focus on whatever you do like, thats the road to it.
if you know your demons, you beat them by ignoring them.

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A solution nonetheless.

no. it doesnt solve any problem, it avoids it. if your unhappy, and then kill yourself, you die unhappy, hence you loose. giving up is not solving a problem.

then that would mean the statement I quoted is wrong altogether

Not all problems are temporary.

true, but the emphasis is on "permanent" not on "resolution". but if youd want to state it correctly, it would be:
"suicide is an irreversable resolve to a presumably temporary compound problem"