I Hate Myself
Oh Ann2011, *hugs* please don't hurt yourself, I know what your going through and it sounds like a bad meltdown where you hate yourself and want to punish yourself I go through the same thing. If you need someone to talk to im here as well as others you remind me of myself at times when I have those same kinds of melt downs. Hurting yourself hurts those who care about you and if you don't think anyone cares I at least care very much.
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Your Aspie score is 193 of 200
Your neurotypical score is 40 of 200
You are very likely an aspie
No matter where I go I will always be a Gaijin even at home. Like Anime? https://kissanime.to/AnimeList
Since these rage episodes are predictable in a sense (Not when, but that they will happen), perhaps you can set up a way to deal with it. I would certainly talk about it with the new doctor. Perhaps you can also self-investigate some coping skills. So when it happens again you have a plan and perhaps some medication to help you deal with it. Glad you made it thru that last one.
Thanks Otaku. : )
I am exhausted today and so disoriented. In retrospect I think this meltdown has been brewing for a while. Hugs.
Thanks : )
Perhaps there is something they can give me for these episodes. My GP has asked for the psychiatrist to review my meds. Maybe they can give me something to keep me more level.
glad you're feeling better.
I cried when i read that. I can stand seeing or hearing about cutting. any time I see pictures of slit wrist it makes me so sad. even just now :'(
hugs extra tight.
had a mini attack myself. I have good control though. its just like deep sadness and frustration. then the thoughts come, but i've learned how to fight them. but it really sucks for the time it happens. I don't really want to die, as I hope you don't either.
few years ago I did come as close as i have ever to actually doing it but I just couldn't, it was then I realized I am not able to kill myself.
I don't really know you but honesty I have gotten to know you enough that if I heard you died i would be quite sad for a while.
there was this guy on a browser game forum that killed himself, he was a nice nazi lover. so strange guy but seemed nice. It made me really sad to hear he did it.
I care about you if that doesn't sound creepy. I hope you keep up the fight.
I cried when i read that. I can stand seeing or hearing about cutting. any time I see pictures of slit wrist it makes me so sad. even just now :'(
hugs extra tight.
had a mini attack myself. I have good control though. its just like deep sadness and frustration. then the thoughts come, but i've learned how to fight them. but it really sucks for the time it happens. I don't really want to die, as I hope you don't either.
few years ago I did come as close as i have ever to actually doing it but I just couldn't, it was then I realized I am not able to kill myself.
I don't really know you but honesty I have gotten to know you enough that if I heard you died i would be quite sad for a while.
there was this guy on a browser game forum that killed himself, he was a nice nazi lover. so strange guy but seemed nice. It made me really sad to hear he did it.
I care about you if that doesn't sound creepy. I hope you keep up the fight.
I have almost killed myself a couple of times, mostly from reckless behaviour like mixing alcohol with pills. I just get this rage inside me like a wild beast. I don't want to die and have been lucky not to.
Thank you for your concern. I'm sorry to have made you sad. I am bothered when others harm themselves too.
I will keep fighting and try to come up with a way to manage my self destructive tendencies.
Big hug
I cried when i read that. I can stand seeing or hearing about cutting. any time I see pictures of slit wrist it makes me so sad. even just now :'(
hugs extra tight.
had a mini attack myself. I have good control though. its just like deep sadness and frustration. then the thoughts come, but i've learned how to fight them. but it really sucks for the time it happens. I don't really want to die, as I hope you don't either.
few years ago I did come as close as i have ever to actually doing it but I just couldn't, it was then I realized I am not able to kill myself.
I don't really know you but honesty I have gotten to know you enough that if I heard you died i would be quite sad for a while.
there was this guy on a browser game forum that killed himself, he was a nice nazi lover. so strange guy but seemed nice. It made me really sad to hear he did it.
I care about you if that doesn't sound creepy. I hope you keep up the fight.
I have almost killed myself a couple of times, mostly from reckless behaviour like mixing alcohol with pills. I just get this rage inside me like a wild beast. I don't want to die and have been lucky not to.
Thank you for your concern. I'm sorry to have made you sad. I am bothered when others harm themselves too.
I will keep fighting and try to come up with a way to manage my self destructive tendencies.
Big hug
_________________
Your Aspie score is 193 of 200
Your neurotypical score is 40 of 200
You are very likely an aspie
No matter where I go I will always be a Gaijin even at home. Like Anime? https://kissanime.to/AnimeList
I cried when i read that. I can stand seeing or hearing about cutting. any time I see pictures of slit wrist it makes me so sad. even just now :'(
hugs extra tight.
had a mini attack myself. I have good control though. its just like deep sadness and frustration. then the thoughts come, but i've learned how to fight them. but it really sucks for the time it happens. I don't really want to die, as I hope you don't either.
few years ago I did come as close as i have ever to actually doing it but I just couldn't, it was then I realized I am not able to kill myself.
I don't really know you but honesty I have gotten to know you enough that if I heard you died i would be quite sad for a while.
there was this guy on a browser game forum that killed himself, he was a nice nazi lover. so strange guy but seemed nice. It made me really sad to hear he did it.
I care about you if that doesn't sound creepy. I hope you keep up the fight.
I have almost killed myself a couple of times, mostly from reckless behaviour like mixing alcohol with pills. I just get this rage inside me like a wild beast. I don't want to die and have been lucky not to.
Thank you for your concern. I'm sorry to have made you sad. I am bothered when others harm themselves too.
I will keep fighting and try to come up with a way to manage my self destructive tendencies.
Big hug
i get that though i don't know what to call what i get i guess it could be internal rage. i hug blankets and let it pass while breathing calming.
hugs.
i'm always here if you want/need to message. i can't do calls or skype voice.
hugs.
i'm always here if you want/need to message. i can't do calls or skype voice.
Hugs. Thanks.
I know I upset my mother with my anger even though I don't aim it at her. That's part of the reason I want to get my own place. She is too old to be dealing with my issues.
*hugs* and *hugs* again I care about you very very much you are a sweet person!Also your from Canada half of my family is Canadian from my mothers side! I have a soft side for Canadians for me being a first generation born American from a Canadian mother I care very much we are neighbors and best friends! And now the National Anthem of my mothers country maybe some day i can immigrate to Canada some day I hope to live in Vancouver B.C. Some day! [youtube]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4xvGKihWh6w[/youtube]
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Your Aspie score is 193 of 200
Your neurotypical score is 40 of 200
You are very likely an aspie
No matter where I go I will always be a Gaijin even at home. Like Anime? https://kissanime.to/AnimeList
I don't know who you are, I frankly don't care, because when you say that you do not have any purpose, I can already call it BS without having a single clue about you.
Look at all these people give a damn, offering you a hand, spending time on you, for you, because they care for you. You are able to make people care for you, like you and if that's not a testament to your worth to the people around you, I don't know what is.
Just 2 cents from a stranger
Look at all these people give a damn, offering you a hand, spending time on you, for you, because they care for you. You are able to make people care for you, like you and if that's not a testament to your worth to the people around you, I don't know what is.
Just 2 cents from a stranger
Thanks : )
Awesome avatar, btw.
.....If you and I didnt live to far away I would take you on a ride in my Canadian made car to the beach!
_________________
Your Aspie score is 193 of 200
Your neurotypical score is 40 of 200
You are very likely an aspie
No matter where I go I will always be a Gaijin even at home. Like Anime? https://kissanime.to/AnimeList
I'm never going to overcome my autism - at best I am an amusing oddity. I can't be productive and I can't offer anything to anyone. I'm a burden - a source of dicordance.
I wish I had a gun, I would blow a hole in my head so fast.
i hate myself too, my advice is dont kill yourself just learn how to hide who you really are and then everything will gradually get better.
im not being sarcastic either, i have a job and am going to be in normal school soon, you want life to work out you should probably follow that advice, its the kinda thing that can make your life work.
I'm never going to overcome my autism - at best I am an amusing oddity. I can't be productive and I can't offer anything to anyone. I'm a burden - a source of dicordance.
I wish I had a gun, I would blow a hole in my head so fast.
i hate myself too, my advice is dont kill yourself just learn how to hide who you really are and then everything will gradually get better.
Interesting timing as I am just fighting these feelings again. I am so fed up with every day being a struggle not to lose it. It's like all life has to offer is years of treading water and then drowning.
You strike me as a good and caring person,I'm sure you do acts of kindness to others.I hope you feel better soon,did you go to the local urban garden?You mentioned your Mom goes.Sometimes it's nice to just sit outside around living things and turn off your mind.And dirt smells good and feels good to the hands.
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I am the dust that dances in the light. - Rumi
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