Does depression ever go away?

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Or not

EDIT: Nice 10,000 posts there Kraftie!

Thanks! I'm actually shocked that I've gotten to 10,000 posts!

In all my other Forums, I've never even reached a couple of hundred.

I guess I feel quite an affinity for WrongPlanet.

Have they fixed the water heater yet?

It's the weekend now...at least you don't have to work!

Are there any buskers in downtown Twin Falls?

Didn't you say you played the guitar?

I don't know how the cops are in Twin Falls--but I would say, if you live near a college, that there's some place, like a coffee house, where people with guitars sing to earn money. You play the guitar, and people put money into your guitar case.

Here in NYC, there are many buskers. Some of them are really good.

On Friday nights, on 34th Street, in the subway, this group always plays Beatles songs. They make lot of money that way.

What about a long-term goal?
Do you have one to work towards?

I don't think I can. I'm not being modest, I really don't play that well. I only taught myself some chords on the acoustic a while back and basically taught myself (slowly). I don't have the experience or technique to play even basic songs without messing up.

I'm better at singing, but I still don't think I'm at a level where I could street perform. A lot if it has to do with the fact that I'm less of a performer than a singer. Performing is more than just having good technique (though it is a big part of it).

And maybe I'm just being overly self conscious, but I don't exactly like the way my voice sounds right now. What I mean is I just sound young, like my voice hasn't fully matured. I don't sound bad at all, better than most average people with no training I'm sure, but I just don't have a full-sounding voice yet. It doesn't sound like a performing voice, at least not for the stuff I'd like to do. I still sound boyish.

And considering I'm only 19 (I don't know why WP thinks I'm 20) it will probably be at least a few more years before I sound my age. Right now I sound more like a 16 year old, even my speaking voice. I don't know why. I showed signs of puberty only a little later than normal. I look a bit young as well. Most people would guess I'm 16 or 17.

Anyway, my point is even if there was a good place to do performances around here I don't think I'm ready for that.

Long term goals? College I guess, but I don't know exactly what I want to study, or where. Other than that vague goal with no set time I have none.

Time is a "great healer" and all that s***. Yeah, sure.

I know depression is not something you can escape from so easily. Sometimes, life events are inescapable and then you may make mistakes you cannot take back. I know. It helps to stay positive, but it doesn't mean you really recover from certain things going wrong.

It goes without saying, but I have felt awful for ages. My mate / neighbor often wonders why he is still around. Life is so boring. We pretty much gave up looking for a girlfriend.

In my experience, time does, at times, "heal wounds."

I don't believe so. I have a couple of suicide attempts starting middle school. I feel pretty lonely for not having friends. Then in high school I am struggling the same thing back in middle school.

In college, I want to do the suicide thing because I'm struggling with my studies. Now I still want to, but I never told my counselor since I don't want to be send to the hospital ever again.

Akama, you're still a young person.

I don't blame you if you don't want to be sent to the hospital.

You do need to talk to somebody, though.

Are you on any medications?

What is your major in college?

Exercise, it will help tire you enough to get to sleep easier, and you haven't been sleeping enough. The lack of sleep is deepening your depression, so more sleep will help lessen it. The endorphins released by exercise will boost your mood, which will also lessen your depression. Eat a healthier menu--that will also improve your overall health. Take B Complex vitamins. B vitamins are good for reducing depression. So is Vitamin D, so take that, too.

There is one problem I don't know a fix for. You, like me and many others on the Autism/Asperger's spectrum appear to suffer from the "out of sync, time wise" neurological processing problem. With this condition, we are naturally slower than normal people. They all live on a faster time track than we do, so we are often late, no matter how hard we try to be on time.

At least go with the exercise, sleep, improved diet, and supplements. It will help with some of your problems.