Overloaded!!
Anyone else struggling with the holiday season already? I really do not like Christmas. It's just 'too much' for me. There's too many people around, too much pressure, too much change, too much noise, generally just too much to process.... Sure I get a bit excited at getting a present I was after and I get that it's supposed to be a special time to be with family but everything about it makes me 'fight or flight' and I tend to do the 'flight', taking myself off to my room or going out on my bike for a while to avoid the 'fight' that tbh might still happen but is hopefully less likely. It's still quite stressful because there is a pressure and inevitable comments from other family members, so even giving myself the space I spend a lot of it worrying.
I'm not sure whether uni is helping or not atm. In one way it's helping in some way to try and keep my mind off Christmas and everything but in another it's just adding. I feel like my brain just goes into shut down trying to get my head around the last couple of weeks before Christmas, then Christmas, New Year, an exam 11 days after that, an essay deadline right after that and trying to prepare for my first placement the end of January.
I dislike this time of year for the same reasons you mention. I do not get into giving gifts and most NT's do NOT understand this whatsoever. I get VERY frustrated by all the sheeple clogging up the highways and byways trying to beat feet for the mall or latest stupid craze that is all the rage.
This year it is camera drones.........oh how I am already so freagin tired of hearing about the drones.
They all flock to the stores, clog the streets and act as if they have no freagin idea how to drive.
F(*&^K the holidays...........time and money wasted!!
PERIOD!! !
Cheers!! !
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I hear ya. It's a very overloading time of year. Sometimes I think it is even for NTs too.
I'm lucky in that I don't have family to have to be around -- and I really mean that, I do feel lucky that those strains and stresses and commitments aren't something I have to worry about, because they did overload me terribly and my family was dysfunctional -- I'm better off without that BS at Christmas.
But there's still the thing about shops, stores. Just to go and do my normal weekly grocery shopping is overload because of the extra Christmas crowds and extra noise -- my supermarket pipes in really loud Christmas songs and I can't even read my shopping list with that in my ears. The funny thing is they don't even play music at all the rest of the year. It's a psychological marketing tool they only bring out in December and I can't adjust to it.
Everywhere you go there are bigger crowds than usual in the run up to Christmas. It's stressful even just being out of the house. I get through it but yeah, it's definitely a thing.
'It's stressful even just being out of the house.' < Definitely this. It's just too much literally everywhere you go. Even if you try to go places when it's less busy, it's still busy. Music, crowds, sights and sounds, people in your way..
I mean I only go to my university lectures and home and try to get the things I need to get during the day when it's a little less busy but even then....
I really don't know why I find New Year so difficult. Like, I don't do anything or go anywhere to celebrate (although sometimes a few of my mum's family will gather at my nan's house which I make an appearance at but mostly do my own thing) but even if I keep my routine as much as I can. I can't explain it. I just find it all very overwhelming :-/