LOL I don't have much of a desire to live.
Only recently I've discovered the gas asphyxiation method, and I wish I had known about it earlier. That way I would have successfully offed myself that night and now I wouldn't be tortured by the overwhelming loneliness, I'd just be dead.
Death...it's being forever free from the miseries of the world, it's total oblivion, it isn't anything. In my current state of mind I can't imagine anything better than being permanently asleep. Sweet!
I'm glad nobody lives forever, because an eternity of loneliness is the last thing I need. One day I will die, be it from suicide or another cause, and that's when my misery will come to an end. Hooray!
Life's finite duration is, ironically, one of the things that gives me the strength to pull through each day. Yay, this hell won't last forever!
But hold on, I might be able to make my life bearable.