Being punished for things I cannot help

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jman
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20 Aug 2016, 11:47 pm

I really hate being on the spectrum. I feel like I am being punished for things I cannot help. It feels like life is a constant uphill battle, a cruel endurance test. Sometimes I wonder if it's all really worth the fight...



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21 Aug 2016, 6:00 am

i feel the same, i am always waiting for something to happen. it is true what people say, "dont wait for it to happen". if i want something i have to go and do it. try and isolate your struggles. try to list them if you feel comfortable doing so. that way others can help identify what can be dealt with. that is the struggle, learning how to cope. i procrastinate a lot. i have things to do, things i can get on with. though i get no joy from them as i feel there is no end goal. you have to enjoy what you are doing. i have a bunch of model planes that i bought. i would like to build and paint them and make a good job of it. it is meant as a learning experience. learning to build them without mistake or mess, then paint them. i have to learn building techniques and paint techniques to get what i want from it. problem is, i have a hard time focusing on it because it takes time and i am still learning. i look around my room at the mess and think about that. i think about the fact that i have no job and always running out of money. i think about a course i am meant to be studying but not because it is confusing and hard. i think about the maths i am meant to be learning but not because it is confusing and hard. these things take time. i have about 12 hours a day where i could do these things. you would think that i could fit it all in with out problems. but most of the day is spent doing nothing but video games or youtube. if i spent half an hour each day looking at my room, what do i need, what can go. then i would make progress. progress and learning are made slowly but surely. it is sticking to a program. if your main problem is with people then that is something to address.
1. do you get support from anyone?
2. if so, how much?
3. what kind of support? e.g learning, emotional

all the best
simon



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21 Aug 2016, 6:13 am

ninjaman wrote:
i think about a course i am meant to be studying but not because it is confusing and hard. i think about the maths i am meant to be learning but not because it is confusing and hard. these things take time. i have about 12 hours a day where i could do these things. you would think that i could fit it all in with out problems. but most of the day is spent doing nothing but video games or youtube.
This me except I that I don't even have the energy for video games anymore. I love video games but they just seem like too much effort now.


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