has anyone else felt suicidal because of there aspergers.

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Believe me, you are not alone, I have often felt different from other people, found it difficult to make friends, find myself a career because of social anxiety as well as process social situations but don't feel like you will always be stuck in the same place with no progress, you have to filter out any negative thoughts in the best way that you can and not allow them to control you. You are entitled to friendships, relationships and happiness just like everybody else, your life is just as important too. The fact that you have family and loved ones that you know will be affected means you still have a unit that value your life and would care if anything were to happen to you.

Depression can be a tough hurdle to overcome, it's not so much overwhelming sadness but losing your passion to pursue interests, insecurities and feeling trapped in your current position but you have to be the one to battle it and believe in your own potential and the fact that progressing and feeling happy and fulfilled is not impossible, It may just take time and something you have to put in hard work towards but it can be achieved with the right frame of mind.

I really think you should stay strong and continue living life no matter how hard it seems, really consider the impact it will have on others if you were to just give up, life is there to test you so set your goal towards being a strong person who can persevere no matter what and don't see opportunities for improvement or happiness as something that is out of reach for you.

My suggestion is take advantage of forums like Wrong Planet, as you will find people who will understand what it's like to have Aspergers and you can start building online friendships with people who have common interests whom can understand, relate to you and advise you You may also want to seek out a professional familiar with Asperger's, who can talk with you, but ideally just talk and advise you, as many people have suggested because they might have a lot more knowledge and experience in targeting and identifying root causes of your depression and finding solutions for you. What you need is understanding, support and that feeling that you are not alone which is perfectly understandable.

I'm a girl with Aspergers, 18, I'm in a relationship, I have a few friends who I can meet up and go out with, I attend college and I'm going to try my best to search for a job soon so you shouldn't feel like it's too late or your Aspergers will completely hold you back. Where there's a will there's a way, if you feel you lack friends then I can always be one to you as can lots of people here.

Just keep fighting.

Yes, in a way. When I can't access my special interests, I feel suicidal. My main special interests are meerkats and veterinary medicine (becoming a veterinarian). If I for some reason I could never be a veterinarian, I would probably commit suicide. People have been telling me for years it would be too hard and to basically quit before I got started and do something like be a veterinary technician but they don't get it. My obsession is becoming a veterinarian, not a veterinary technician. Just like meerkats are not ferrets.

On average once a week I ponder making it easy on myself and figuring out a way to go bye bye, it used to be several times a week but my persistence has paid off in that I now 'only' consider that option of exeunt once a week, I have came too far to vanquish the light I've discovered I possess but it doesn't erase the black monolith that arises. If I didn't do it then where I had no hope and no vantage point and no reason except a distant pinprick of hope of more meaningful currents, if I did not off myself prematurely in this period of nothingness I waded through, I don't think I will ever do it but the feelings without a completed circuit are still a terrible weight to carry, like a heavy pair of curtains the bleak sensation is very real to push aside.

Those that are depressed and have medical insurance should consider medicine or ECT, (electro-convulsive-therapy.) I used to have severe depression problems but medicine didn't work for me unfortunately so I tried ECT, and after many treatments I was no longer depressed. I've posted messages about ECT on several threads on this forum because I think it might be able to help those who've tried everything else. It's far less barbaric than it used to be or how it's portrayed in movies, and it can help psychosis as well. The main negative side effect is it can have a bad effect on your memory, which has happened to me. My short term memory isn't what it used to be, and some memories I used to have I no longer recall. But I'd rather have memory problems than feel like s**t all of the time, don't you agree?

After doing some more research you should only try ECT as a last resort. First off, make sure that they give you anesthesia because some countries do ECT without anesthesia and then you have a seizure and your body thrashes around and you can break some bones. It has saved people's lives, including mine, but it has also caused severe memory problems and other problems with some people. I met a person who couldn't remember anything of her childhood after having it. However if you are severely depressed and you feel like killing yourself and medicine and therapy and everything else has failed then you might want to consider it. Just talk to a doctor about it and its potential side effects and if you should try it.

i have nothing helpful to say because i don't see another option either, but i thought i'd put it out there that i can relate 100%.
i am almost 2 years over 20 now as well, and it doesn't get any better because we'd need a miracle for anything to get better, we cannot change ourselves.
i have done nothing in 6 years in fact, not only because there is no point for someone like us because we'll never get anywhere, but because of how crippling this disease is.
i have also encountered health problems putting me in chronic pain and making me low-t, basically forcing me into a nothing lifestyle (though i am at least getting treatment for that now - but it is not optimally treated yet).
i'm surprised you got a hug though, you must be higher functioning than me so you may have some hope.

mate i was in your same circumstances at one stage (and am now still) and i can tell you, sex and relationshits are extremely overrated. i dont know what else might be depressing you but i assure you, once you get a years worth of it you'll realize how not worth your time it is.

Many of us have felt that way.

I used to have passively suicidal thoughts here and there.

Then a ~4 years ago I had the WORST depression & anxiety of my life for 5 months, which included feeling passively suicidal more and more frequently until it was every day. I refused to accept that as my reality. I knew I hadn't always felt like that and that something must be causing it.

I met the right people by chance (an Herbalist and his father, a Naturopathic Doctor), researched obsessively, and figured out how to treat my symptoms with natural medicines. I've managed to treat my depression/anxiety/ASD & all related symptoms with such success that the last time I truly felt depressed (~4 years ago) seems like a distant past life ago.

I've been very transparent about all of this stuff on these forums over the last few years or so. I've been a pretty happy healthy guy since, back to work & life and having more of a social life the last couple years than the rest of my life combined. etc. If you're at all interested in what I've done, I'm more than willing to discuss it. Feel free to shoot me a message and we can chat.

Cheers,
Richard

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In 2011 and 2012, I felt suicidal. Nothing was going right for me and I felt like a loser. Things turned around for me in 2013 when I finally achieved my goal of getting my driver's license-at 48 years of age. Now things are steadily improving and driving has opened up a whole new world of social activities.