23 Sep 2019, 1:40 am
23 Sep 2019, 2:42 am
23 Sep 2019, 10:01 am
...Recently, at the library, a librarian wouldn't help me with something (super-basic 
) I didn't know how to do, it wasn't part if his provence I guess.
I CAN'T CARRY MY LAUNDRY AROUND 
! I hurt myself enough already with the excessive amount of carrying around stuff that I have to do 
. The four?? pants-plus worth of clothes I brought from San Francisco, I put I.the storage space I already have for the books etc. where there were also already a few clothes.. I may not be able to reach the storage place any earlier than about 10 AM.
If I did, busing up and r
taxing back up and washing and taxing back with the load a nmmnd getting back down safely by 5 PM might come to a third bus ride Easily likely twenty dollars or more each, so there's the majority of $100 .
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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!
23 Sep 2019, 8:36 pm
) I didn't know how to do, it wasn't part if his provence I guess.I CAN'T CARRY MY LAUNDRY AROUND
! I hurt myself enough already with the excessive amount of carrying around stuff that I have to do . The four?? pants-plus worth of clothes I brought from San Francisco, I put I.the storage space I already have for the books etc. where there were also already a few clothes.. I may not be able to reach the storage place any earlier than about 10 AM.If I did, busing up and r
taxing back up and washing and taxing back with the load a nmmnd getting back down safely by 5 PM might come to a third bus ride Easily likely twenty dollars or more each, so there's the majority of $100
.Not trying to sound stupid, but wouldn’t it be cheaper to just buy a new set of clothes every few days? Or own two outfits - wear one clean outfit and go to the laundry right away, wash the dirty set and carry that until you need to change? So you carry one clean change of clothes, your pills and I think you said you usually have some extra bedding ....
When the librarian didn’t help you did you ask if someone else could? Maybe whatever it was really wasn’t part of his purview. If its a big library maybe he cant leave his section. My library has four floors and a basement section!
23 Sep 2019, 9:08 pm
Hi ASS-P, sorry to hear about the latest struggles, but glad you're still "keeping on keeping on".
Wishing you well as always 
24 Sep 2019, 7:34 pm
...Last night, the shelter wanted me to take a shower and have my clothes washed, which I did. I received adequate for pvernight clothes clothes, was TX .i we'd be ready in the more ing. They weren't .
They were lost. Substitute clothing presented to be Did Not Fit. They just said they couldn't find them . Eventually, some adequate slacks were found - and fortunately, I remembered the T-shirt I didn't have on last. Ight that I had forgotten to give to be washed. That seemed unfortunate then. it seemed fortunate now. I am told that the faster ight laundry was, then, found in the laundry and it would be dry tonight. We'll see. 
Presumay, the WI-fi back there will still be broken (It wasn't before it broke.).
To-day, dropped off downtown at the za.e spot I'm waiting.to be picked up. I spent fj a-plus hours there, first lying down flat and resfing and hoping for some sun, getting some leaked wI-fi from a nearby building. Sun came, we off, did fall asleep about 3 hours, woke up past 12, had been lying on these plants at the HL puck-up spot for 5 hours. I really do need lots of rep%rest.
Too late to go to the USPD ma pls e, had my first meal of the.day from bus stop grocery, bussed towardsibrary & edited letter about my sh***y cousins, walked back - tiring myzelf - about to get on bus to shelter now.
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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!
26 Sep 2019, 6:12 pm
...I finally got the NYD lawyer to send me a considerable bit of dough, but it'll take til next week to get it - Hopefully/Optimistically, Tuesday - the HL mail place gives out mail based on what came yesterday, so that assumes Monday.
There is likely a box of reading I mailed to myself here in SC when I was leaving SF waiting for me. I would have to take it to my storage unit, probably by taxi - so to follow that I can't go there, really, till I have dough for that - and I just realized that, the way my money works, my SSDI may not come till Thursday, not the usual Tuesday. Uh oh .
I had enough $ to get one meal a day myself (besides the Sally dinner), but now ...
And there's one staffer at the Sally who's somewhat cranky, and could, conceivably, throw me out, for one night antway ...
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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!
26 Sep 2019, 7:59 pm
There is likely a box of reading I mailed to myself here in SC when I was leaving SF waiting for me. I would have to take it to my storage unit, probably by taxi - so to follow that I can't go there, really, till I have dough for that - and I just realized that, the way my money works, my SSDI may not come till Thursday, not the usual Tuesday. Uh oh
.I had enough $ to get one meal a day myself (besides the Sally dinner), but now
...And there's one staffer at the Sally who's somewhat cranky, and could, conceivably, throw me out, for one night antway
...Did you get your clothing back? I mean, did they find it after they washed it?
Just try and fly below the radar till your money get's to you. Be frugal with it... I could understand wanting to get yourself a room for a couple nights, relax, take a bubble bath, etc... But try your best not to spend it till it's gone. Get your glasses! That would be exciting! Not trying to boss you, but when folks find out you have money they will want to be your best friend, don't tell anyone.
I hope this brightens your day. Do you have a back brace? It might help with the pain some.
26 Sep 2019, 8:28 pm
...Thank you. Yes, I got the clithes back. I really do not think I'd get a room - anything I could%would go to is quite expensive, and most motels pretty far from downtown (Often the not-many-buses-there touristy Beach Boardwalk area) and I'd lose my signed-up status here after three nights away.
To-day U woke up and had to, after my effort getting my aching back up off if mats in the floor, bathroom-dressed so much I missed the one bowl of cereal breakfast. Expected. Dropped off at that spit, again, lied down, overcast morning, not much light, eyes had difficulty reading this . Coaxed myself to sleep, maybe 8:39, had got there not quite 7?? , it did see the letter ascertaining that the money would be sent first. Dozed%slept, some sun came along, woke up not qyite1:00? Someone had left a Kunchavles box beside me, opened a d ate it. Before going to sleep a fellow HK had offered me two diyghbyrz, I took one. So, I did gave some food in my stomach by the time I got up - which, as.I did in the morning in the shelter and ha e done elsewhere, U dud in stages - packing stuff in, then resting to get some more lie-down and sun.
As I said, I decided I couldn't go to the HK main drip - became too late to go to my storage place, to reduce my heavy liad . I told myself I'd go too-morrow. It was too late I thought for the library too. I did want to go somewhere, not go back to the drop-off spot and wait again. The side-if-the-bus ads for Mini-Meals at McDonald's had hungrier me even though it was mud-afternoon I did want more a full meal, I took a bus to the MickeyD's just past the motel I was in in 2918 (which I can't go to anymore(, I went there a lot then. Nostalgia.
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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!
26 Sep 2019, 9:24 pm
To-day U woke up and had to, after my effort getting my aching back
up off if mats in the floor, bathroom-dressed so much I missed the one bowl of cereal breakfast. Expected. Dropped off at that spit, again, lied down, overcast morning, not much light, eyes had difficulty reading this . Coaxed myself to sleep, maybe 8:39, had got there not quite 7?? , it did see the letter ascertaining that the money would be sent first. Dozed%slept, some sun came along, woke up not qyite1:00? Someone had left a Kunchavles box beside me, opened a d ate it. Before going to sleep a fellow HK had offered me two diyghbyrz, I took one. So, I did gave some food in my stomach by the time I got up - which, as.I did in the morning in the shelter and ha e done elsewhere, U dud in stages - packing stuff in, then resting to get some more lie-down and sun.As I said, I decided I couldn't go to the HK main drip - became too late to go to my storage place, to reduce my heavy liad
. I told myself I'd go too-morrow. It was too late I thought for the library too. I did want to go somewhere, not go back to the drop-off spot and wait again. The side-if-the-bus ads for Mini-Meals at McDonald's had hungrier me even though it was mud-afternoon I did want more a full meal, I took a bus to the MickeyD's just past the motel I was in in 2918 (which I can't go to anymore(, I went there a lot then. Nostalgia.Glad you're gonna get a break, everybody deserves one. Enjoy!
26 Sep 2019, 10:19 pm
...Thank you, I meant to add more, but I got distracted and you answered. I am on (just one now) my cot on the floor now, my eyesight is blurred, I won't look very much at what I'm typing, but the keyboard. So, if there's errors...
At MickeyD's, I had a - by my standard - maybe slowish-medium-sized meal, though, to others I suppose 
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I thought the bus would get me back to the spit early, possibly...but it was parish, and the go-back-to-the-shelter bus was there already...But that was okay, especially since I got on the bus for that first trip immediately, rather than wait for the later one.
At the shelter I had dinner - more a nutritious "real ' meal (but pretty repetitious. On cot now, as said.
I gave basically just these clithes -and a lot of still-new underwear, which, in this expensive pattern , I keep.throwing away - If I had a real place with a laundry bag I could leave in the corner, it would be different, but I don't . Politeness and little spurts if per (not flat-out losing control & peeing, but little spurts when I awake before I can go fully do it) get in . I should get to the storage too-morrow, there's no bus to it on.the weekends. This pattern if mine of much of my day revolving around a maybe block-a1nd-a-half of downtown. SC from the Metro. &/7×#+bus station to a Walgreens. It is perhaps good, I get rest and sleep, that I obviously nleed. - but it's staying in one small area so much. It maybe underlines how slowed-down by my handicap I am - The lying down helps me avoid back pain A reason for going to the McDonald's was to sit somewhere near and cool, at a pretty back-support ing fixture, and do some phone - like now, but with my vision better there.
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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!
29 Sep 2019, 1:54 am
....Today, I again stayed in 5bat block-ish all day, getting more sleep in the morning, my first (rather kinky & expensive) meal there again, etc....Walking some - though maybe too little - but also sparing my back/muscles as much strain/walking, which was probably good .
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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!
30 Sep 2019, 9:37 am
...I was particularly one time be a cranky, bitter, cripple, which I didn't like myself doing . I guess my SSDI won't com ril' Thursday, I guess I have enough to get along - but, after not very much for a while, I'll have a lot of money at once when the money comes in.
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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!
30 Sep 2019, 10:12 pm
...My charger plug is gone . My buds might be gone too. I may have left them at the library. If so, perhaps I can get them back tomorrow - Or I could possibly even buy a new one at Walgreens' with the money I have now - But to always have to buy things, over and over, again and again!
There's still juice in this phone, but I can't recharge it now, and I want to save some for tomorrow morning.
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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!
30 Sep 2019, 11:56 pm
. My buds might be gone too. I may have left them at the library. If so, perhaps I can get them back tomorrow - Or I could possibly even buy a new one at Walgreens' with the money I have now - But to always have to buy things, over and over, again and again! There's still juice in this phone, but I can't recharge it now, and I want to save some for tomorrow morning.
Quit laying things down then!
01 Oct 2019, 2:15 am
. My buds might be gone too. I may have left them at the library. If so, perhaps I can get them back tomorrow - Or I could possibly even buy a new one at Walgreens' with the money I have now - But to always have to buy things, over and over, again and again! There's still juice in this phone, but I can't recharge it now, and I want to save some for tomorrow morning.
Quit laying things down then!
Buy some cheap luggage locks, and lock your valuables in your backpack.
