Multitasking , & fatigue. .?
Please , need to know , if just me or not. When having to tackle multiple serious events , simple as
More than one responsibility . Per day .. or series of them in a week, bigger stuff. Interacting with new people . All NTs , doctors , police . Simple as dealing with a lawyer or a court something or the other.
Schedules .. bad neighbors ongoing. Going shopping , or event simple as thrift store shopping ,
Almost all have bright lights. {{Does anyone else get totally wiped out mentally physically, }} if faced with having to being / .. pressured to deal with any one or multiples of them in a week , much less a day. Destroying your ability to give proper attn to important things interactions
with other ones in areas your life. Then live with the consequences . With no one to debrief with?
Have to even plan to trigger your own mind to recall to take trash out on a given day.
Add any other smaller stressors , just people realising, you are bit off, as a aspie. Saying something dumb or off color to you . In event you are borderline meltdown. If / making back to my vehicle , if am out doing this .... just end up slumping over the steering wheel for periods of time or whatever. ?
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I can definitely relate to this.
Where I am in life takes a lot out of me on a daily basis. The persistent unexpected changes, as well as regular tasks at hand.
My routine involves waking up at 6am, and I'm often ready for bed by 4pm.
Even today, a simple phonecall threw off my mood and made me feel terrible about myself, and then having to bear this emotional burden that I can't shake off, which in turn, has had a knock-on effect with the rest of my day.
On more busier days, negotiating new people, and very crowded places, really tests my sensory processing, attempting to suppress meltdowns, which in turn, develop into shutdowns, so I end up feeling numb as well as exhausted.
It's a mental (as well as physical) juggling act, where I'll sometimes find myself crying by the end of the day, out of frustration, especially if there are days where I don't even need to get so worked up over such trivialities.
It must be disheartening when you don't have anyone to debrief with. I'm blessed to have my partner, but at times (out of habit), I will bottle up my day-to-day annoyances, until it's angrily projected at something or someone unexpectedly. She manages to get it out of me, but it still doesn't help the fatigue.
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"I may not have gone where I intended to go, but I think I have ended up where I intended to be."
"And I've embraced the calamity, with a detachment and a passive disinterest."
"I hear voices...But I ignore them and just carry on killing."
Yeah, that's bad. If they're things that have me convinced that I know what I'm doing, like regular dentist check, normal stuff at the bank etc. then it's managable even if there's lot of stuff in a short time, but if it's something completely unexpected that I'm not used to then it's panic and/or lock down time. Usually I manage to hold these in 'till I get home if I get the news elsewhere, though.
Dealing with many issues one after the other can push me into fragile mode.
Having visitor after visitor without days to recover (After visitors visits we need to do more shopping so half the next day is shopping again, as visitors need to be fed).
So it can push me into fragile mode where I need to retreat but even when in my bedroom, I get asked to come down to be polite at the very time I am fragile... So then I start partly shutting down so I have to retreat, and I can't recover until the house is quiet again....
Archmage Arcane
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Not sure if can keep this up..keep thinking if , can just get these things done.
It-ll be ok and can get to normal again. But , its not stopping.. even doc gave me tranq medicine. But , its not working . And after effects. Are showing when they wear off . Can magnify stuff. And i hate pills , except vitamin ,supplements.
And if used right they work better..but alotta research to figure the ins and outs. Having to rest much more . Functional amount of time during the day ,seems to be shortening . Stress is doing my health in. ( MENTAL) primarily.
Was dubious about getting through another winter . Last winter.
I do not wish to have a lingering demise. Have been used to being , who i am.
Been in a situation where was not able to walk or get about. Long ago.
Over 17 yrs ago or more .. had very special doc then . But she ,retired with no replacement and i had to move 1800 miles away. Coffe,e was helping alot but
Sensativity to caffiene has skyrocketed . Is was how , i was coping.
No end in site. If , i ignore the situations , will be a certain target for local neighborhood gamg. And home will suffer. And all the work on the grounds ,
Was doing to be distracted from stuff. Then when i was outside , was getting targeted. Have had to lean heavily on the police . Whom appear not to be sympathetic to autistic people. The property is inherited , from family .
And they kept grounds beautiful . For ten years with lower stress, and right tools wa able to do it .if left alone think could still do it if can just recover from ongoing situation . Do not think caffiene is a long term benefit to recovery.
( your mileage may vary) ie, your experience.
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It costs most, sometimes all, of my mental tokens just following my daily routine tasks. Doing anything outside of my routine is mentally difficult, and task switching near impossible, so each non-routine task requires its own day. And most require extra preparations, follow-up, or recovery time from overwhelming sensory or mental work, requiring not one, but a couple days set aside for completion and resetting mentally. At best, I could hypothetically do one appointment and one trip to the grocery store in one week.
Recently, I needed three separate trips to buy just two items from a small store. It was a scented body wash type store. And normally I avoid scented products and their stores but I needed the product and it always has a strong scent, so I needed to find the least offensive scent. First day, I was so overwhelmed by the sights, sounds, and scents that I could not process anything (found nothing). Second day, I could visually scan the products, but could not smell anything after the first one - so my sister helped sniff - and could not see after scanning for just a few minutes (but found the first item). Third day, I could visually scan the products and did not need to sniff as it was just a container for the first item, but could not see after scanning for just a few minutes (but found the second item).
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31st of July, 2013
Diagnosed: Autism Spectrum Disorder, Auditory-Verbal Processing Speed Disorder, and Visual-Motor Processing Speed Disorder.
Weak Emerging Social Communicator (The Social Thinking-Social Communication Profile by Michelle Garcia Winner, Pamela Crooke and Stephanie Madrigal)
"I am silently correcting your grammar."
Recently, I needed three separate trips to buy just two items from a small store. It was a scented body wash type store. And normally I avoid scented products and their stores but I needed the product and it always has a strong scent, so I needed to find the least offensive scent. First day, I was so overwhelmed by the sights, sounds, and scents that I could not process anything (found nothing). Second day, I could visually scan the products, but could not smell anything after the first one - so my sister helped sniff - and could not see after scanning for just a few minutes (but found the first item). Third day, I could visually scan the products and did not need to sniff as it was just a container for the first item, but could not see after scanning for just a few minutes (but found the second item).
Thank you very much for posting this . (Needed to know)
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Diagnosed hfa
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