I HATE Aspergers!!
I really really hate having Aspergers. I have ALOT of pain in my feet & lower legs, it had to do with when I broke my ankle 4 & half years ago. I been stuck in my apartment, I have one step on my porch, I can have sooooo much trouble bending my legs. I can still walk, but I can’t stay on my feet too long, when I’m on my feet, I can have alot of anxiety & I can breathe too fast. I have a walker & a wheelchair, I been getting help with cleaning my apartment & other stuff too, some of them were cleaning people, I have a trust fund that my mom left. When I feel alone with nobody to help me, I get sooo overwhelmed, I get extremely extra anxiety even in my wheelchair. I really hate forgetting things too, for days, I been wanting to get a new trash bag for my bedroom, I keep forgetting, I’m sooooo bad at alot of things, I forget to check my emails, I had over 300 emails to delete, I still have to delete my emails, I can forget to read my regular mail, I hate reading my mail for alot of reasons, 1. I don’t have too much patience anymore 2. It toooo much 3. It can be soooooo hard for me to understand cuz of my Learning Disability 4. I can get anxiety if I can’t understand what I’m reading 5. I can cry too 6. I’m can get so overwhelmed. I have brain of a 5 year old. I been wanting to die cuz I CANNOT HANDLE things anymore, I get extremely very bad anxiety, breathing too fast, very very overwhelmed, I just want to die, I want to die in my sleep, I want my mommy, I want to go to heaven to be with my mom again. It will be 10 years in June without her.
Sorry you're feeling so bad Kitty. Have you tried deep breathing to calm you down and getting a diary to help you get organised?
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Diagnosed with ADHD - Inattentive type and undiagnosed aspergers.
Interests: music (especially 80s), computers, electronics, amateur radio, soccer (Liverpool).
Ghulam Asadiq
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^ No offence intended, Ghulam, but it isn't very helpful for Kitty to say that it's worse for you. I can relate, and am sorry you're having a tough time because of the extra barriers you face as an ethnic minority.
Kitty: I hope you're doing ok. How are you today?
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Did you try yoga? I found it's not so hard to start a yoga routine. Just get a yoga mat and start with a short duration. Like 2-3 minutes. Keep the yoga mat visible, so you don't "forget" you want to do yoga every day for at least 2-3 minutes. When you're used to it, increase the duration, try different poses etc.
I hate having Asperger's, too. Aspgerger's didn't didn't cause you to break your ankle.
Your brain is much more mature than that of a five year old. That is evident by how you write.
I hate having Asperger's, too. Aspgerger's didn't didn't cause you to break your ankle.
Your brain is much more mature than that of a five year old. That is evident by how you write.
I know Aspergers didn’t cause to break my ankle, but aspergers does cause people to be clumsy.
sending best wishes for physical comfort and rapid healing. ( I get that clumsy stuff, me too , completely exasperating!)
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