Radish wrote:
DeathFlowerKing wrote:
Most of you guys are just being snarky instead of supportive. Seriously what the hell is wrong with most of you? There's only been a couple of people in this whole thread trying to give me any real comfort and advice.
Not trying to proselytise, but have you had a look at Buddhism? It won't give you stock answers, but will encourage you to look at your questions with a new light and perspective.
Yes. The closest I've ever got to anything in the 'religious/belief' ball-park is listening to the recorded lectures of Alan Watts (1915-1973), which I still do occasionally.
What I like about Watts is that he didn't actually practice Buddhism himself, or at least not as a discipline, and coming from an Anglican church background (with a mother who'd spent time in pre-communist China) and serving as a priest for a time, he had the skills - possibly unique - to convey an Eastern philosophy to a western audience in a very engaging manner that's easy to understand.
He ended up being an alcoholic which likely contributed to his death at 58, so there's no danger of a personality cult developing around him that could ever be taken seriously, he just leaves a set of sign posts and a torch that might help lead you out of a dark forest and then it's up to you to navigate your way from there to wherever you feel you need to be.
I'd say discovering him was as life changing for me as taking LSD, he helped me make a lot sense of what I'd experienced on LSD several years after I'd last taken it.
Oddly enough I first came across him through an experimental album/LP he'd made in 1962 (pre-Beatles first single incredibly), a track called "Love you" which upon first hearing would probably strike the average listener as one of the most disturbing and insane pieces of 'music' ever committed to record, particularly the ending which could easily be mistaken as satanic, but I got it straight away and it led me into investigating him further.