Dear Friend TDF,
You are familiar, of course, of comforting orphaned children with the vision that the missing one is sitting in heaven looking down on the child and sending love and care. That has never appealed to me, but I find myself sitting on the ground, under the mango tree, next to your bifoliate orchid (which is flourishing, btw), urgently wishing it true; that you are in heaven looking down on me and caring for me as you did in life.
You told me, when life with my foster daughter looked like it was coming to an end, that Friend NF, like me, was pretty good at discerning the call, but not so good at perceiving when it is time to let go. You suspected I was having the same problem. (And I am so glad that I was able to tell you, before you died, that she had renewed contact with me.)
I wish you were here to tell me if it is now time to lay down my responsibilities working. So many of the signs point that direction. So many of the doors are closing. I would have more confidence in my decision were you here to walk me through it. You, who said you never had divine vision, but were so much better at sorting. You might have some simple guidelines. I am so lost.
So I will trust that you are in Heaven, looking down on me and caring for me, that I will find a way through.
love,
Friend E
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The river is the melody
And sky is the refrain - Gordon Lightfoot