bullying is so relentless

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I feel like I need to commit suicide because the bullying is so relentless. Don't worry, it won't happen. It's just so crazy that my mind actually gets to the point where it feels it's a survival need rather than an emotional response. That's just sad.

whos bullying you?

Ive been bullied everywhere ive been so i understand

Thank you so much. I get bullied by so many people in all walks of life. This latest bout of severe bullying was from my disability lawyer.

What did the lawyer do to you?

I am lucky to have enough money to avoid bullying situations.

I shop at Target rather than Walmart. Nicer staff at the nearby stores.

I grocery shop at the better stores to avoid bad people. I don't eat a lot of food and don't waste it so by grocery bill isn't that bad even with more expensive food. Sometimes it is cheaper to buy more expensive organic food as I can eat it all before it spoils. Though I had learned to freeze stuff like onions and ginger root.

I've also learned to be more assertive. When I'm not sure I'll ask about what is supposed to happen.
Do I need lab tests before the appointment next week? I can't find any papers. So I emailed them and they sent a note to the lab, saving me a wasted trip to the lab.

I have also been bullied since secondary school. Mainly due to my appearance.

You shouldn't have to put up with being bullied. Have you got any friends who can help defend you?

(((skiburn)))

Thank you so much. I actually do not have anyone who will help me even though I have people who will sympathize. That is what is one of the hardest things. People think that because I am "high functioning," I have the ability to protect myself from these social predators. But I actually have no ability to but no one will help me because they think I should be able to do that myself.

She has severe mental issues and verbally abuses me a lot. She has latched on to me as her target. One of my psychologist friends explained to me the issues that this person has after she read our latest text argument. This person has definite sociopathic and neurotic issues and she has chosen me to target and abuse. She has been verbally abusing me for nearly half a decade now. Unfortunately, I can't cut her off because she is withholding my ability to get a lot of the money that I am supposed to get from the government as part of winning my disability case. She should be disbarred for what she has done and is continuing to do to me but unfortunately, she won't be because the system is corrupt and she is a well loved and well respected lawyer. So I have to take the abuse because no one else can get the money for me. But I am afraid that I might never see the money, it's close to $20,000, because as long as she delays me getting it, she knows that I can't cut her off and she has the ability to continue to abuse me in order to make her feel good about herself. So there is nothing I can do.

I am so sorry that you have also been bullied. No one should ever be. BUG HUGS back at you.

You are very blessed that you can do the things that you do. I am happy that you don't have to experience this sort of thing.

She shouldnt abuse her power over you

You are correct. She should not. But unfortunately, because of my social and emotional vulnerabilities, I tend to be a very big target for social predators and social bullies and because I am "high functioning," no one will ever help me. It's a real shame because the damage that does to me is unimaginable. Just like a person who is clinically mentally ret*d, I have no ability to learn the skills necessary to recognize the bullying when it is happening or to defend myself from it. That is a noted fact that my doctors and therapists have understood and concluded after diagnosing me. But because I am analytically intelligent, I can't qualify for any kind of help or protection that a "lower functioning" person could get to protect them from that kind of abuse.

Yes thats the flaw of a one dimensional, either-or, high/ low functioning label.

Social predator, ive not heard that one but i know exactly what you mean!

Do you have any family who could help you

I think so many of us struggle with this similar dynamic. Unfortunately I have no one who can help me at all. I have no family in the state I live in and even if they were here, they would not help me. They also see me as "capable" of handling whatever happens to me and they will tell me that. Even they don't intend to, they are very dismissive and invaliding when it comes to things like that.

Do you keep a diary of the incidents that happen and who does them?

If you keep a record, people are more likely to believe the evidence.

That's the best advice I can give, I've been told to do that at various times in my life.