I think I have PTSD. It seems like much of who I am today is because of it, like Paranoid, Schizoid, and Narcissistic Personality Disorders, agoraphobia, and possibly even what I think is Asperger's Syndrome. The lack of want of social interaction, and lack of social skills, and restricted interests and repetitive behaviors are both associated with Schizoid PD, and I've had speech and language problems forever, which is probably partly dyslexia at least. I've been introverted my whole life, but from what little I can remember from my childhood, I didn't have problems socializing and getting along with people, although I've always been pretty independent.
As far as I can remember, most of this started at the beginning of 10th grade. It wasn't something extreme like someone's death (although it was the loss of someone in my life), but because of a certain problem that existed since I was born, and eventually got so bad it traumatized me.
At times I repress the thoughts so much that I feel like it never happened, and when something reminds me of it, I get very depressed, sometimes to the point of crying.
I don't know what the point of this post was. It just makes me happier to get things out think about it and let others know. I don't want to go into too much detail in public.