I can't get on with my life

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Hi, everyone!

I feel like I can't get on with my life, mainly because on the outside, I think my mom is the meanest person in the world. I have places to go today, but I don't feel like going anywhere until my mom comes over to my apartment.

I happen to think my life is not very stable right now because not everything has happened yet. However, on the inside, it has.

I think my mind is stuck on the "outside" frame. People have been trying to get me to take my mind off of it, but I feel so afraid to talk to them that I don't think it's possible.

Also, I think I'm experiencing one of those times right now! What will I do?

I AM NOT UNDERSTANDING WHAT YOU ARE FEELING, SO
I AM POSING QUESTIONS TO UNDERSTAND!

Hmmm? Are you close to your mom, or scared to be on your own?
regardless of her control(in your life?).



Hmmm? So you feel that on a physical level you feel incomplete?
If I am wrong tell me! and in your minds eye you see the pieces
in place, but not physically enacted? CORRECT ME IF I AM MISREADING
THIS?



Outside frame = who you are? how you present yourself?

Mind of it = Mind off what?

Afraid to tell them....Who?

-your ghostly poster-
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Jason Larsen
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Hi!

I haven't heard from you in a while!

I am close to my mom and scared to be on my own.

I do not feel incomplete on a physical level.

I am a very good person and I present myself very well.

I am afraid to tell the other people who support me besides my mother how I feel.

Thank you for your support! I appreciate it very much!

You're lucky to have someone to help drag you out to do things. I can't seem to get what I need to done. (Maybe if I left my computer for a bit?)

Thank you!

I don't know if this is a workable suggestion, but here goes...

Cockney seems to be benefiting a lot from that Clubhouse thingie she goes to. Is there a possibility of you getting involved in something like that? They have them in Utah, so I know it's not just a Canadian thing. That would give you a routine outside of your apartment, in a supportive environment, without having to rely on your mother either physically or emotionally.

Just my suggestion, for what it's worth.

I like her, but I haven't heard from her in quite some time!

I'm not sure if it's a Canadian thing or not.

I thought you were from Slovakia!

I'm originally from the Czech Republic, but I live in Utah at the present time.

I know that there are some of those clubhouses in Utah, but I don't know what you need to do to be able to participate in something like that. I've only ever been to one that the county mental health runs in Salt Lake as part of a service-learning program I was in when I was getting my BS degree. So I have a vague notion about what goes on once you are approved to participate in one of those things, but I have no idea what the people had to do in terms of getting a referal from the county mental health to be able to go there. The people who were there as clients were pretty interesting - some of them had master's degrees and PhD's and some didn't even get through highschool. Most of them were at a lower point in their life where the clubhouse was sort of helping them with socializing, independant living, etc. in a controlled environment (meaning no bullying, help with dealing with employers, roommates, etc.). The social worker there said that some people keep coming around for years, and others just start to feel like they can be more independant and only show up once in a while to say hi to the friends they made. I even thought to myself that I should keep the name of that place in the back of my mind in case I ever go through another bout of severe depression

Anyway, Cockney hasn't been around as much lately, because from what I understand she's been doing really well at the clubhouse. I have heard that they even helped her get a job and start earning some money. From your very brief original post, it sounded like those were your goals, but you're sort of lost in how to go about achieving them. Very understandable. That's why I thought that I'd suggest the clubhouse.

Oh! I'll bet I would love your accent!

I'll give the clubhouse or something similar a try!

I'm glad to hear about Shelby!

I actually don't have very much of an accent left. Sometimes I struggle with longer words (recent example - ineffecacious).

Who's Shelby? Is that CR?

That is indeed Shelby!

She lives in Vancouver, which you can go to very easily if you're in my hometown of Seattle!

She has a British accent, but she has lived in Vancouver all her life!

I wonder if her parents are British.

I knew she lived in BC (didn't know where), but I didn't make the connection with her first name right away.

I'd heard her say that about her accent as well - figured that came with the London/Routemaster obession like a package deal or something.

Seattle is not that far from her, and I know that for a fact!

Yeah, whenever I rent a car at Sea-Tac they ask if I want insurance to go to Canada. I've never taken it, since we usually go there to see my husband's aunt and cousins. We actually went there a lot over the last couple of months because my husband's uncle was dying of cancer. So my husband stayed there for a long time to help out while his uncle had hospice care. Then we went back together over MLK weekend in January for a memorial service.

Oh, you've been to Seattle!

Well, I am there for good now and I don't want to move anywhere ever again!

It's a wonderful place, isn't it?

Seattle is nice. But I think I'd miss Salt Lake City. The nice thing about it is that you can be in the middle of towntown and decide to go to a ski resort or desolate hiking trail and be there in 20 minutes.

The downside is that there is no Ray's Boathouse here. And no trolls under bridges - the only trolls I see regularly are the idiots posting pages and pages of the word "SPAM" in the WP blogs