Tried to kill myself but failed

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I can't bear the loneliness anymore.

No, don't do that.
If you feel lonely there is always fiction; you can spend time with fictional characters from a book or a movie. It's not as good as real friends, but it's better that nothing.

I'm alone, 39, and living with my parents because my career fizzled out. I still manage to enjoy many simple pleasures in life despite the frustration of not having my own independence which I blame on this f****d up job market.

I don't have a girlfriend either, but at least I have my porn.

If I were to kill myself to, I wouldn't even have these simple pleasures since I'd be dead in the ground.

I guess my response to this is just considering why you really feel bad. Are you just 'lonely' or do you feel left out or that you're missing out on something other people are enjoying? I've thought about my own situation and I do sometimes think I'm missing out on a social experience, but do I honestly feel lonely? No. At worst, I feel bored.

If you are receptive to the idea, look up Buddhism in reference to Desire and really consider if Desire is leading you down a bad path for a weak reason. Maybe your life feels strangely solitary, you see many people around you that are not this way. You desire to be like them, but feel unable to attain it. I don't think this is reason enough to consider killing yourself and many other options are available.

I'm lonely too. But I am not gonna kill myself for this reason.

But then you won't live to see the Singularity!

Seriously though, I have been in that place before. Hugs.

Nur kelkaj petegas pli baldaŭ eliri. Ĉu vi certas, ke estas fininda la streĉo sukcesojn aspiri? Verŝajne ankoraŭ ne vanas subiĝi al novaj postuloj.

Tamen, se ĝi vanas, ankaŭ vanas logi nian atenton.

Kyle, hang in there. Don't give up.
I understand the depths of loneliness and the feelings of despair and the desire to end one's life.
But these feelings pass. They are like a wave that washes over and then dissipates.
You just need to get through this wave and you will start feeling better again.
You will find strength again to keep going, keep trying.
You are worthy of life.

You're a smart guy. Don't do it, man.

Do you live in Tallinn?

I hope you'll change your mind

Send me a PM if you want, I'll pretty much talk about anything. I'm feeling a bit lonely and bored myself on a daily basis and it would definitely cheer me up and hopefully you too.

It doesn't appear he's been here since he made that post. I really hope he didn't do it. . .

"Too bad. You don't get to do that, to. . . to come into somebody's life, make them care, and then just check out."

Dale Horvath in The Walking Dead.

I hope you are still able to read this.
Darling you are only 21. I know the feelings you have - I have them too. But I had them much worse when I was your age. This means that things did improve. I have much in my life I would not have had, had I succumbed to the desire to end it. I have two awesome kids. True, I am so lonely because I am married to a horrible man who is empty of any feeling but anger, and I spend much time agonising over how to finish with him without someone getting killed (such as me), but it is quite rare for me to think of suicide anymore.
Please give yourself a chance. I am happy to be your friend. Please PM me any time. OK, I work and don't always check because I usually know no-one will be contacting me, but I do not want you to give up.
I would really like a couple of friends anyway. I sometimes feel the loneliness will swallow me whole. I cannot even look for another man because the space next to me is occupied by a cold, damaged, dangerous neanderthal, but I still have hope I will find a solution one day. Maybe some friends would give me strength.
There is such a strong chance that your life will change multiple times and some of those will be good.
You will never know if you don't stick around to see.

The fact that someone was making over 200 posts per day raises a few concerns about his state of mind, but I think (and hope) that our worst fears are misplaced.

A few weeks ago a member with a prolific posting record made a sudden and dramatic exit from WP. He had the same sort of erratic and sometimes dark outlook as Kyle, made similar threads to his, and even used identical phraseology on occasion. I think it's highly likely they were the same person, and that it's equally likely he'll return under another name at some point in the future.

Some of his threads I found a bit bizarre, but others were highly creative and funny. He had (and has?) a great deal to offer to WP.

Hope he's OK. You've got to give yourself a chance and checking out that early in life isn't giving yourself one, but I understand that you can feel as though you've been around for ever however young you are, that's all the time you know, "Life is very long when you're lonely" as somebody once sang.

Hang on and find out if it's worth it, there's a good chance it will be, then it'll all go s**t again and then back up and so it goes, but this is how you become wise to what the f**k is going on. The dumbest people on Earth are the one's who never get seriously depressed. It's a part of the process and upon reaching the point where you're seriously contemplating suicide you know you're on the way to working the whole thing out. It takes a lifetime, so use it.

PM me. I'm hard to kill, in empirical terms. You can learn what's worthwhile in your life before the loneliness passes.

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"Standing on a well-chilled cinder, we see the fading of the suns, and try to recall the vanished brilliance of the origin of the worlds."
-Georges Lemaitre
"I fly through hyperspace, in my green computer interface"
-Gem Tos

Of course everybody can be lonely. Not everybody can proudly claim to be choosing loneliness rather than unworthy company, however.