I'm too quiet.

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I know there's a feeling now that the past is the past where Earth is concerned, that we're in a deeply transitional phase for everyone. I always read that my ASD would get worse with age though & I'm sad to say it feels true. I don't want to see the emergency now as an excuse to overstep my social bounds but is it so wrong if I want to send at least SOMETHING to people I love who've alienated me?

Didn't something else just collectively alienate us all yet again anyway? First the internet, now this.

I feel exempt from all the good things people are doing for each other because all of us know I'm no good at talking to them. I know the silence is deafening for everyone so how wrong would I be as a socially clueless aspie to try & help?

Would it be vindictive or spot on to tell my friends I know how this goes?!

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"Standing on a well-chilled cinder, we see the fading of the suns, and try to recall the vanished brilliance of the origin of the worlds."
-Georges Lemaitre
"I fly through hyperspace, in my green computer interface"
-Gem Tos

Probably not, at this point.

I’m sorry you’re feeling so stressed in what’s going on with the virus.

I wish you could go off-roading like you love to do.

I wish you better health dude! I'm a little confused on your opinion here - should I really try to share some aspie sensibilities? I guess I'm most concerned about everyone's exit strategy personally; how does this end for us & how can I make sure we can get together?

I'm still really put off by the usual services people are chatting over these days.

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"Standing on a well-chilled cinder, we see the fading of the suns, and try to recall the vanished brilliance of the origin of the worlds."
-Georges Lemaitre
"I fly through hyperspace, in my green computer interface"
-Gem Tos

If you want to be quiet. Be quiet. If you don't, then go for it: get out there!

My social motivation score was 4%. I want to connect also, and am a bit stymied. I am "intense" for NTs. So I make my effort to write, or IM, or even call my closest friends, or comment on FB (not video conference, not yet). My few close friends respond; others don't. Still it feels awkward for me. Soooooo, in my new place: kudos to us for any effort we make and grace for us for any "awkwardness". Embrace the awkward!

I was just telling my husband about my instinct to speak freely with someone but it would make them uncomfortable and he was like: when has that ever stopped you? (in a kind way) It stops me more often than not, but he's right that since it's my way --- that is what there is for me to do.

Most folks won't get it. Some will.

I feel like, in this crisis, that you should reach out to people, communicate with them. But never force it.

This is a hard time for everybody.

I think the first hoop I have to jump through is that in some ways, socializing at all feels forced for me.

I almost can't grasp the level of simplicity required in my message. My head's literally in the cloud most days.

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"Standing on a well-chilled cinder, we see the fading of the suns, and try to recall the vanished brilliance of the origin of the worlds."
-Georges Lemaitre
"I fly through hyperspace, in my green computer interface"
-Gem Tos

Nothing I say ever seems to enthuse people about... other people.

I'm kind of resigned to not overthink anyone's response to this thing when I can avoid that, I don't feel inclined to judge people for the most part although I recognize what that eclipses in terms of my situational awareness.

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"Standing on a well-chilled cinder, we see the fading of the suns, and try to recall the vanished brilliance of the origin of the worlds."
-Georges Lemaitre
"I fly through hyperspace, in my green computer interface"
-Gem Tos

Have you found someone who understands, even a little bit? If I spread my concerns around I can find folks who understand little bits --- so I relate to one person 1% and another 2% and another 1% and maybe even 20% with my BFF and with my ASD group another 5% … and it adds up... I much more willing now in my "old" age to "lower" my standards for understanding (they are still pretty high --- as exemplified by me yelling at my husband this afternoon about the error in Theory of Mind studies).

BTW - Your post inspired me to text a nephew (who's high risk and probably in denial) with whom I am not often in touch. (I sucked it up and tried to call but it didn't go through … thankfully.) I tried to keep the text to my point without be too heavy handed but also being true to myself enough. Much to my surprise he gave a brief response. So that's a win. TY.

I'm just biking around the neighborhood lately. My roommates understand to some extent but I've been missing some of my closest friends entirely for a long time before all this.

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"Standing on a well-chilled cinder, we see the fading of the suns, and try to recall the vanished brilliance of the origin of the worlds."
-Georges Lemaitre
"I fly through hyperspace, in my green computer interface"
-Gem Tos

I have a much-used Trek Remedy 29 now. I'm thinking of running Magura brakes myself since my XTs are toast. It also needs a crankset & lighter fork pretty badly; my RaceFace crankbolt is failing ...

My dirt jumper also needs brakes, the Avids it came with are shot.

Getting ready for a ride now, but for me that consists of some low key meditation. I was a mess in the first place.

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"Standing on a well-chilled cinder, we see the fading of the suns, and try to recall the vanished brilliance of the origin of the worlds."
-Georges Lemaitre
"I fly through hyperspace, in my green computer interface"
-Gem Tos

Have fun, my best ride is still my 26er.

I have a lot of work to do on my bikes but it's nothing next to the dumb mental block I posted here. I have a lot of work to do with some experimental software that's too specialized to really even describe to my friends. I have a lot of work to do keeping myself employable in a totally different discipline anyway. I'm probably forgetting something here but that's the point I suppose.

_________________
"Standing on a well-chilled cinder, we see the fading of the suns, and try to recall the vanished brilliance of the origin of the worlds."
-Georges Lemaitre
"I fly through hyperspace, in my green computer interface"
-Gem Tos