Fickle_Pickle wrote:
I think I should get rid of my feelings by smoking marijuana(,or drinking it as a tea).
there is a problem here; cannabis is a mild psychedelic and so it can actually accentuate your feelings. dark stuff lingering in your subconcious can be dragged forwards, unpleasant emotions or ruminations can be intensified; anxiety, paranoia, dysphoria. Trying to 'escape' can backfire.
If your actively seeking these things out as a form of therapy, then there could be benefits but youd need a lot regular experience with it before trying that, as being unfamiliar with the effects can be overwhelming, theres a very high risk of acute anxiety.
To summarise, leave weed alone for a happier day, it might be useful fun in the future but now isnt the ideal time. What your feeling now will pass, you just need to be prepared to work through it, then youll gain a new perspective.