scale of -10 to +10, how do you feel right now?

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4ish. Estoy muy cansada, pero no puedo dormir porque mi pelo es "poof".

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I finish a ballad I've been meaning to finish!

Her tears are locked within a chamber
She was hurt by his many threats
Memories of her abandonment haunt her
She cannot forgive the past as of yet
As she is still troubled by its cruel stare
Her father just didn’t seem to care

She remembers that last phone call
Her father made her feel so alone
Her confidence was just so small
She finally snapped; she screamed into the telephone
She couldn’t take it anymore
Her innocence was too far gone
Her mind fought a vicious war
She knew that she was his pawn
But she wanted nothing to do with his board games
She was sick of being his tiny chess piece
She wished to be herself, without any blame
But for that to happen, his games would have to cease
She offered a compromise, so she didn’t have to quit
But her father decided he would rather split

Her tears are locked within a chamber
She was hurt by his many threats
Memories of her abandonment haunt her
She cannot forgive the past as of yet
As she is still troubled by its cruel stare
Her father just didn’t seem to care

She remembers how numb she felt
She was stuck within a never-ending fog
Her thoughts just seemed to melt
Her feet trapped in the underlying bog
Depression came in and took its toll
She disconnected herself from her life
She felt like she had no control
She was going through so much strife
Not able to believe her own father
The one who should have been there!
Could just abandon her
Leave her out in the wilderness without a care
And could sleep at night
Without a thought of her continuous fright

Her tears are locked within a chamber
She was hurt by his many threats
Memories of her abandonment haunt her
She cannot forgive the past as of yet
As she is still troubled by its cruel stare
Her father just didn’t seem to care

She finally started to awake
Her father was just a lousy jerk
That someday will see his mistake
For judging that little girl’s quirks
But she knows now that she cannot wait
For a fantasy reunion that may never take place
Her life is starting to become so great
She cannot continue this stressful chase
She is still troubled sometimes by life’s cruel stare
But one thing that is less is her despair


I have a writing high at the moment!

Wow ebec!

Very meaningful.

Thanks
I guess I just needed an outlet for my feeling

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I had a severe meltdown and hit the door to my bedroom door in my dorm, and someone on the floor below me complained to the RA, and then the RAs called my parents back in Houston.

I was upset because my friend hasn't e-mailed me in two weeks. Other than her, I have maybe one other friend.

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I know everyone is getting tired of my whining so I'm not going to say anything about it anymore, I'm getting tired of my whining myself. I won't get on when I'm feeling that way anymore.

Funny thing is, realizing I'm doing nothing but whine has given me motivation to stop and do something about my depression. I want to do things that make me feel better. I'm going to my brother's house in a little while and I'm going to take my PS3 with me. He is going to rent a couple of games for us to play. I think this will help me take my mind off of the things that make me feel the way I have been lately.

4 A little worried about one member and I am ok I guess.

5 because I can't wait until June 21st because of the cruise! But I am sad that I might be a complete failure in art. So, I'm not manic or depressed, just right in the middle.

8.5

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