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Ok I have to get this off my chest. And I warn all readers I WILL be cursing but I will put Astrix over them to censer them I had a community "COLLAGE" coarse in computers... They CALLED this f***ing class computers but it was really a class on Microsoft office. Let's put aside the point that the first section was turning on and running the program, let's put aside the point that they had to explain that pushing a f***ing key will make that key appear on the screen and lets LOOK PAST the fact that the textbook for it is thicker, taller, and wider than the frikin bible and coasted 85$ and the class was 100$ a semester. They taught things in that class in far too much detail that is covered quite adequately IN THE MANUAL YOU RECEIVE WITH THE F***ING PROGRAM! And not only that you can just Google it and find out as well FOR FREE. That is if your not capable of figuring out how to use it in the first place non your own. I despised this class with my very soul. This was a collage coarse and 4 months of my life and several hundred dollars wasted on this worthless, useless class!

Last edited by James0Zero on 11 Oct 2010, 7:23 pm, edited 1 time in total.

I question the integrity of chaos caused when it does not need to be, when relationships end far too immorally, and too cheaply.
Sometimes I look at the mass number of such things and I think that it's so astoundingly ridiculous that something in nature that does not need to be so complex and potentially chaotic, is.
I cannot fathom any of it... what makes sense?
Nothing seems to make sense or compute to my idealistic views.
I am exhausted by this state of mind, and I feel kind of indescribable by the whole thing that I've gone through recently.
It all feels like an unholy amount of pain whereas I am left wondering 'Why? Just what is meant to be complex about it all?'

I am exhausted by this, and I find it astonishingly... ridiculous... can't really find a correct word for it.

Dear me,

You f*****g female!! How dare you be born the way you are and have feelings? What the hell encompassed you to make such a toll?

You are stupid, conniving, pathetic, ugly, dumb, only looking for rich man. You are nothing more.

Good day.

I am not looking forward to going back to the group home even tho 3 people (professionals or professionals in training) want to see me and actually talk to me there... I'm so sad I have to leave them but I asked them to find me an apartment soon because the schedule there is stressing me... I'd rather do what I've gotta do in my OWN good time. Not slower, just on MY natural internal schedule. And I will try to keep in contact to the people that talk to me!

Where in Hell has all the time gone!?!

I am so afraid of dying suddenly for no reason at all. Far cry from when I contemplated attempting suicide.

Did you have a dream or is it just a feeling that has come over you? Do you remember where you were and what you were doing when you first began to feel this way? I have experienced this myself but I could never figure out why. Have you ever experienced this before now? This kind of thing makes me very curious. Take good care of yourself Nurylon.

I've had it with people who are just immature all the time. No matter what!

I'm 20 and in college, so I get a slight bit of stick for it, but the immaturity level of everyone around me actually drives me near insane! Most of them are either hitting each other repeatedly, speaking "L33T" Speak in real life (Grrr!! !) Or are openly discussing how they'd have sex with people they know. It really annoys me and despite wanting to stick with my course, I feel the people are slowly driving me away with stupidity!

Please, someone! Help!

My curse continues, once again. Some man in his 50s tried to make a move on me, when I was volunteering at the soup kitchen yesterday. He tried to offer to sell me some bootleg CDs that he burns off the Internet and than the conversation changed from music to relationships. He told me that if I was interested, just to tell him and than we will go all the way...yuck!

What ticks me off is how normal people think that they are superior to us when actually it is the other way around

That also ticks me off.

ew... as if... you are so desperate to have sex and to be with somebody... anybody... that's so disgusting... I HOPE YOU told him, "HE NEEDS to, STOP FLATTERING HIMSELF, it's making HIM look DELUSIONAL." LOL,

Sorry, I cracked myself up.

Speaking of such things... this is MY RANT, like it or not.

WHY do SOME PEOPLE ASSUME I am UNHAPPY and LOOKING for someone BECAUSE I am BY MYSELF and I am NOT currently IN a RELATIONSHIP?

This is ridicules beyond words...

ALL my LIFE I have always felt ALONE and LOST but I have been WITH PEOPLE and I have DONE what was EXPECTED of ME, I have put EVERYONE FIRST and MYSELF LAST.

NOW, I am FINALLY ABLE to really CONCENTRATE ON MYSELF and BE MYSELF.

I have WANTED and WAITED to TO BE ME all of MY LIFE.

I would NOT TRADE this TIME in MY LIFE for ANYTHING in the World.

WHY is that SO HARD for SOME PEOPLE to UNDERSTAND?

NO, of course I don't WANT to be ALONE for the rest of MY life and I have NO DOUBT that SOMEDAY I will MEET the RIGHT PERSON for ME to LOVE and SPEND the rest of MY LIFE with.

But FOR NOW, I am ENJOYING this TIME ALONE, I am putting MYSELF FIRST, everything I DO is ABOUT ME and it's WONDERFUL!

So SOME PEOPLE really need to STOP ASSUMING things about ME, just BECAUSE it's what THEY themselves WANT, does NOT MEAN it's what I WANT as well.

I am NOT the TYPE of PERSON to go LOOKING or CHASING after SOMEONE, I NEVER have BEEN and I NEVER will BE. I NEED NO one to SUPPORT me, I NEED NO one to TAKE CARE of me and I NEED NO one to MARRY me.

I am NOT the one WHO is DESPERATE here...

So FOR anyone who THINKS THEY are DOING me a FAVOR, STOP FLATTERING YOURSELF, it's making YOU LOOK DELUSIONAL, really.

Yes, I AM somewhere "BETWEEN" JUVENILE and SENILE and that MAKES ME very HAPPY.

Thank You, Zen Mistress, I appreciate the information, that was kind of you to share it.

I hate her. I hate her I hate her I hate her. I hate how her suicide attempt failed, afterwards.

Fuc.k you fuc.k you fuc.k you.

It's like magic. If I'm unsociable, the phone won't stop ringing. However, on the rare occasions when I really need someone to talk to because intrusive thoughts have turned me into a hyperanxious, OCD-ridden wreck, noone who could actually help is online.

I just hate her repulsive ex-boyfriend, now, who convinced her that he still loved her and took her away from me, took her virginity, then lied about it to his girlfriend that HE was unfaithful to, when she admitted it to her. And no one would believe her since it's known that she has mental problems. Fuc.k I hate humanity. If only he would be tortured to death. Too bad that he lives almost on the other side of the world - then he would be dead, already, cut up in small pieces and dumped for the maggots to eat.