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Wow; that is gross but awesome.

Adverb just told me he'd read most of my posts (not all of them tho ). He's therefore going to understand me perfectly.

My conversation in a PM with a friend reminded me of something I had to say but couldn't explain, and now I can explain it in here.



Sometimes to forgive people, though, you have to bring up all the issues with them. Letting it go just like that only makes it come up later. Delayed reaction, delayed trauma, whatever. If you live long enough, it will come up again, because it's there in your head all the time, even if it's not being visited. It could manifest itself as a depression, a paranoia, hallucinations, bad dreams, delusions, anything. Sometimes we can only move on after we've vomited. If we keep it in, just "forget about having swallowed the poison", it goes further in, into the blood, and further in, and it gets right to the organs, the brain and everything, and kills you. Sometimes you have to vomit before you can feel better.

My parents are moving into a smaller place, which means, they'll be more wealthy, with the money that they make off the two-story that they're selling, now.

I love reading CockneyRebel's posts because they always cheer me up! Even when they're depressed they cheer me up because they're nice and I can identify with the depressed parts as well.


I got PMs from 5 people lately, three of them new, one a friend and one a friend once again.


I'm still not banned!111 I wasn't even warned by a moderator. I haven't talked to a moderator in months except for that one time Alex removed my "post a random fact about" threads saying they were spam.

Mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmeat pie!

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I feel a lot better now. I don't know why. I felt like I was dying 20 minutes ago and suddenly I feel nice.

I feel bad and a bit depressed still, and it really isn't fun, but I like it here. I never get called a spoiled brat. I don't get pressured to go back to school. I felt so bad for the last 3 days that I moaned out loud all day and nobody told me to stop or shut up or that it was annoying or distracting. I offered to go outside but Jack told me not unless I wanted to go outside anyway. When me and Jack make mistakes we always admit within half an hour that we made a mistake. And we understand how and why. So there's no building-up resentment or misunderstanding, or any of that horrible crap. I've never been preached to here, I've never been passive-aggressively pushed, I've never been shamed, and all misunderstandings are always resolved.

SPRING BREAK SPRING BREAK SPRING BREEEAAAAAK

Music. without it I would die, I wouldn't know what to do with myself. It's something that can't be explained scientifically and can still make you wonder to yourself and for that I love it so much

Thx for being so awesome and giving me a reason to live


Without music life would be a mistake.
---Friedrich Wilhelm Nietzsche

I think a lot of depression is caused by lack of conversation and lack of gourmet meals. I think that if people ate gourmet meals every day and had long conversations every day there would be a lot less depression. I should read some gourmet cookbooks. (Or go to a gourmet restaurant and take people's abandoned leftovers.)

I must say, that I am very glad to say:
I have had a 12th grade reading level since around 3rd grade.
I always, no matter what, have allways had a positive outlook.
I never care what anyone thinks of me.
Even though, I have experinced the loss of my little sister, I have very well gotten over it. (NO SYMPATHY NEEDED.)
My parents are still together after 26+ years.
I find it simple to uplift others.
I don't look at the outside or the faults, although, I will give suggestions.
I however, prefer just listining.

I have four kiwis!! !! !

I start working 50+ hour weeks here, and going to high school.

It's going to be awesome, I love both my jobs, and am excited to be working so much. Distracts me from depression a great deal to be working.

Forth is such a great programming language! It IS sheer obfuscation, but it also is really neat!