front wrote:
For years have had and still have the same thoughts about it.
Active - no
Passive - yes i wouldnt let them treat cancer, or if a car comes my side of the road i would happyly stay on mine
I dont wish for my family to have extra grieve but if i can get a good excuse .... any day is as good as the next day to die aint it?
sorry to be a killjoy [unintentional pun], but- if you don't let them treat cancer and it spreads to something like your brain or eyes or something which would leave you maimed and in much unpleasantness, then where would you be? cancer is a crappy way to go out, with protracted pain. same for getting hit by a car, it could just maim you for the rest of your life instead of killing you outright. when i was younger i was "accident-prone" and stumbled into many situations that should've killed me but for some reason unknown to me then, did not. luckily i never even got maimed by these "accidents" which were subconscious attempts by a part of me to off myself. but i've also seen the results [working in a hospital for decades] of people who tried most sincerely to end their lives but instead maimed themselves something awful, and they were in far worse a situation than they were in before- the lucky ones were vegetables who were unconscious of their awful new "jumping from the frying pan into the fire" situations. the unlucky ones [much more common] knew what they used to be and were in a situation where they no longer had any autonomy over their own bodies, and were basically "locked in" or stuck in their present living death situation. just think how awful that would be. i'm not saying don't commit suicide [only you can make that decision for yourself] but i am saying think it over as carefully as the most important life decision you will ever make. when it is your time, only then will you be allowed to go.