scale of -10 to +10, how do you feel right now?

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-7. I am angry with myself for not talking much with people in class today. This is why I can't make any friends. This class gives me the perfect environment for sharing my interest with others and I am screwing it up.

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Not really sad but still down. I have no motivation to do anything. I wanted to workout at the gym today but I can't find the motivation to go. I can't even bring myself to eat anything.

I feel at a 2 or 3 right now. I was having a good day till what just happened less than 30 mintues ago =[

1 because I went to my pdoc to convince him that I don't need anti psychotics and he is EVIL. I love evil people because they make me laugh. He thinks I am very psychotic and since I have to get off the Invega due to side effects, he is putting me on an older anti psychotic at the end of the month. I told him I would give him a buck if he took me off the anti psychotics because I am normal, well just a little autistic but thats about it. Sometimes I get depressed, but everyone does. Even my cute and delusional bird gets depressed when you tell him he's not God. How cute and adorable. I don't have delusions, everything that is happening to me is real but my pdoc doesn't get that. He thinks I am as delusional as my bird. No one can get that delusional! My hallucinations are a few times a day but if you do research, a high number of non psychotic people hallucinate. I sometimes see the FBI in my house, in fact I saw them today when I was getting something out of the bathroom and the door was open (I wasn't using the bathroom, just getting something out) I saw them heading toward my room to put bugs (listening devices, not bugs that crawl on you) all over and maybe cameras. I love the gov!

3. Mixed feelings. I wonder if ever I will enter a high number, such as 7 to 10.

The stupidest phone company in the world were supposed to connect our new broadband account but they did it 5 days later than they said they would. So I have had no internet since last Thurs night. It has had a silver lining though- 5 days with no internet has been amazing for my eyes, I feel so much better. So I have decided to spend as little time online as possible as of now. And more time doing offline things.

-10

I have been crying since like 8:00 which means about a hour. I have the worst headache. Already told gram if I was to stop breathing let em die. I have nothing to live for. I have a bf that's it. I am sure he would find a wonderful girl some where. I am at risk of failing 8th grade due to being behind in some of my subjects. I cyber school. Mom has been yelling at me until e got to grams. The only thing holding me back is that killing yourself is a sin and no heaven. I need to go to heaven to see my fellow fire captain who died in August and my great grandma. Also my gram keeps saying do not do anything foolish.

^It's a good thing you believe in heaven.




0 - Pretty "blah" myself. I won't elaborate....

-10

I was already depressed to begin with and now this happens.

- 8.
I am feeling very down at present.
i feel gutted and depressed and pretty low. everything i attempt turns bad and anything to do with other people turns into a logistical nightmare for me. i don;t understand people and i get myself all muddled and stuffed up whenever i get close to people. i make blunders. i don;t know how to read people or go with the flow of things. everything turns into a mess,

my ex is my very good friend. he is the father of my son.i talked to him about this, this afternoon. i really feel as if i would check out and end it if it were not for my son. i hang on to that. i won't do that, because my son needs me. but i am very, very, very tired of sturggling with life.

Because of the absence of better words; ((((hugs)))) for everyone who feels sh***y here.

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To put a cypher on my mood, I don't know, my body aches lately. Headaches, left jaw hurts and my f*cking back aches again but I try not to go really down, mood wise. So.... +1

I've been good for a long time now; ups and downs here and there, but that's life. Got a job, found out I'm LFA; positives and negatives.

I'm going to hunt down the wild dogs that killed the neighbours' llamas recently (again); the bastards didn't even eat the llamas, they just killed them and left them in the paddock. The llamas deserve someone to avenge them.

+2 Doing better than yesterday, which was terrible. Hopefully, tomorrow is even better.

-5 and dropping

Better, but I'm still in a funk. But I have to stay strong for mom's sake. I can't afford to be depressed now.

^Hang in there SF.

0 Not well, need trazadone to sleep.

Right now, ~+3
Past 7 days, ranged from a +7 to -10... Somewhat happy to suicidal....

about +7 at the moment.