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Very excellent post, ASS-P.

...I actually have money on the way! I left that out last night... The NYS lawyer, he said, has a check in the nail for me . Less than the amount that was spent on the MSC...From the very time the possibility of money from my brother's fund was brought up to me I thought that what I would want to. Do is keep the money to the side, and use it to fix up/get stuff for a presumed apartment/room.
I have said before, IIRC, that some sort of place set up by Social Services:whatever is really the only likely way I will get housing space in SC. There's a real housing shortage, and it's very expensive, and, furthermore, University of California Santa Cruz students compete for cheap-er housing. and furthermore, AirB and B apparently took some spaces off the full-time rental marjet...and I'm maybe a little too obviously " homeless", in appearance /manner and record... or lack of it. And, I'm handicapped . I obviously need ramps, no stairs...And, more so, some additional tailoring would be nice. At the MSC I had to walk on a pretty narrow ledge to stay on the sidewalk to get to the room in back, and the bathtub seemed difficult enough, possibly, to get out from seated that I only showered. I'll probably never be as un-handicapped as I was in early 2015 . I'm not going to piss the trust money completely on a few months in a motel. Was it the 12:57 post you liked, KK? The money is likely more of a supplement than something to live on.

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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!

...I got my SSDI/whatever to-day ~ I got it from an ATM at a 7-11, and then bought food there ~ partly to warm my pore old aging body ! I will byt stuff like burritos, instant mashed potatos ~ goinng back to when I was in Seattle ~ something semi-liquid and hot ~ in temperature .
Having indulged myself w/a national New York Times ~ ppartly for a story I'm going to put up in Politics ~ and, since it was raining, after getting soap and new gloves and stuff (food) at Walgreen's I took the hour-long bus to Watsonville, thinking I'd use the wi-fi there. I didn't, mostly half-assed tried to rest.
In W'Vil I bought a Big Az cheeseburger at the bus station's concession stand ~ A REALLY good one! ~ and rode back to SC, I did more successfully nap most/much of the way.
Back in SC it - Essentially?? - wasn't raining anymore, I made my way up to the library, where I am now.
I called in to the River Street shelter to put me on the list for beds for that shelter. They said to call back about 4 PM, I did, they were already closed by then ~ they must have closed abruptly at 4 closing time??
I have only 1 set of clothes, what I am wearing. This includes underwear. Now, I had told myself I would go to the Target store in Capitola and buy anothher set of undershorts and one of ~ " ex-con " cut ~ undershirts but it did occur to me that that's a lot more to carry around, 6-9 of each . And, if I get some outer clothes at Goodwill as well ~ With just one backpack, and my having rested yesterday and to-day, my back hasn't been so bad - but maybe that is temporary respite .
Furthermore, even sitting in this library the last 3-plus hours ~ My rained-upon jacket is kinda cold and semi-moist-ish ,

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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!

...Okay, going backwards, generally anyway. Isn't is now Thursday morning - the week anniversary of the theft from the MSC happening. Earlier this note, a staff here at the SA shelter nearly threw me out-made me throw.myself out over my coughing - from CIPD, it's non-infectuous, non-germ-carrying, it's been tested - and I was 100% covering myself up, I was trying to sleepi underneath a sleeping bag completely covered up, mummy-style. They wanted me to move from my sleeping position in the main room to another out in the hall, which would have made me, crippled and it's a strain to get up from lying down , do so, and Lise the warmth- and moving toward.sleep - I'd built up under the bag, and drag myself out there .

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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!

...Contunuing...The coughing was dying down anyway. I do it really every time I lie down and periidically. My body forces me to do it I don't like it .
First a female staffer dealt with me then a male one. I think the male was one I'd dealt with upon coming in. The female, in ordering me to the hall, eventualy threatened me with being kicked out.

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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!

...Continuing...Then the male chimed in. I said that if they were going to force me to move, I'd call 911 and say I needed to go to the ER, as they were kicking me out due to the coughing, w]th my Adina and more being other reasons to go to the ER. He insisted that he was not threatening me with throwing me out, although he was, and said that if I called tthe RR I could'nt come back here again, then changed that to if I called them, I would have to talk to talk to him before I came back again.
I was ready to call, but a final conflict d]dn't happen, and the cough was dying down, so I didn't...

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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!

...Now, stepping outside of the chronology, I will mention that it took me four-plus hours to type the last three posts, with breaks for eye rest and/ir sleeping, from past 1 A.M. to past the lights-on of t AM, in the lights-out room. GF, on the top of the last page, informed us what a great Tyler on phones, just as he is the world's greatest Aspie verything on everything else

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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!

.. I lost at least TWO drafts before this! I guess Om put something up but then deleted it, I followed the link of the norification but it led to nothing .

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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!

...I'm in the ER again, BTW . Variety of reasons. I don't't know whether I will be admitted or not .

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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!

...I wasn't. Didn't particularly want to be. Even hospital staff thinks I'm faking with my COPD coughs ! I have some temporary substitutes for the pants I'd wore since I left the MSC, which were filthy, but they barely stay up AT ALL! I REALLY need to have that money come in from the NYS lawyer TODAY! He didn't't follow up on his saying he'd get the refund money to me Thursday. He's shown himself to be an extreme clock-watcher. There was a slight spot of blood in my urine .

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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!

That's unfortunate.

I can't recall, what brought the COPD about? Have you been a long time smoker?

COPD is a bit of a catch-all term for a handful of lung ailments.

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No for supporting trump. Because doing so is deplorable.

...No, I never smoked cigarettes at all .

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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!