I am Fat and Worthless

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I certainly don't agree with some of the things Danielismyname said his posts, but I can understand how he would take offense at the notion that the OP wishes for a death by cancer, I admit I was.

Cancer is a horrible, painful disease that puts many thousands of people and their families through terrible ordeals. To "wish" for it and treat it as if it is a positive or a more preferable outcome can really hurt the feelings of people who had to have witnessed loved ones die of cancer and shows an ignorance of how bad it really is.

Graelwyn, be thankful that you do not have cancer and can sort out your life if you just apply yourself. You keep "forgetting" appointments with your therapist; that's not an excuse. Write yourself notes, set an alarm clock, or whatever, just make sure you are able to get assistance for what you are going through, I don't know what you think people on a forum will be able to do.

This thread has really been on my mind, which is odd when you think that I am a complete stranger who knows the people here from only a few lines of text, but I really hope you, Graelwyn, take some initiative with getting better. I don't want to see you end up hurt or unhappy.

Danielismyname is probably right and death is the only way for me to ever be free.

Obviously a sh**ty bad person for wishing I had cancer.

I researched the methods before christmas.
So I have no excuse to still be here wasting peoples' time and energy.

Can people please stop arguing? Danielismyname hasn't said anything hurtful since his first post. I don't see the point in people continuing to argue with him here.

Also, can we just ignore all the insulting “your not fat, stop whining” posts from now on? If people don’t put any thought into their comments they should just be ignored. Why feed idiot trolls who make trite thoughtless comments?

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I think that it is dificult that people are asking for empathy in a population where people struggle with it... unfortunately some people will come up with some very insensitive responses.

I dont really view Daniel as a monster though, I think that he is just very disconnected from other people. I remember making some incredibly hurtful and insensitive comments to people in the past that were of a similar nature, so I dont feel I can judge him.. though I had much to learn about other people and their feelings and I tried hard to learn accordingly.

When I see suicidal threads I sometimes secretly empathise with the thoughts, though I would not actually encourage the poster, in case they decided to listen to me! I think the best thing to do is to not give up on life, though it can be arduous.

Graelwyn,, I think ultimately people on this board would rather you would decide to live. I have wanted to end my life many times. Actually one of the things that kept my holding on to life was worrying about the pain i would leave behind. One thing suicidal people dont realise is the incredible impact they would have on the emotions of people around them if they ended their life.

I have often felt unpopular and unloved, but as my mother said to me, sometimes people can like and care about you and admire you, and you might have no idea....

I know people who have committed suicide and they have left unbelievable pain behind amongst people they didnt think loved them. I wonder if they know now.

Personally, i like taking up a lot of space in the world, if not physically, then certainly on a social level.

There will always be people who contest my existence, or my right to be who I am. That will never change.

Graelwyn, I really mean it when I say that many, many more people care about whether you exist or not than you think.

graelwyn, I had OCD one time, but I took medication for it. I htink that is what is causing you to be irritated by your body. You hsould go check out some OCD meds they will porably help you.

There is just no end to it, I stand in certain positions and my skin wrinkles up on my buttock and it sags.

I dont know if this happens to everyone if they lean over sideways and backwards slightly and look down at themselves, but I just feel like stopping eating now.

I had anorexia nervosa for a few years immediately after leaving high school, and no matter how skinny I was, I was always fat.

If you have an obsessive concern over your weight and appearance, it's usually that rather than OCD; obsessively exercising is another sign.

OCD would apply to weight in that you'd have a fear of gaining or losing weight for something bad will happen if you do one of those, so you'll compulsively eat, or not, to relieve anxiety.

O, and ebec11, I'd prefer it if you mention my name if you're talking about me; hiding behind ambiguity doesn't make what you say any more sound or just, it's just one of those cowardly things people do for they fear reprisal.