scale of -10 to +10, how do you feel right now?

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2. Been feeling better today than I have been lately, have been having a lot of sort of meltdowns over the last week. I realised this morning that my depression seems to be getting worse, the spells of it are getting more frequent. I need to try and lift myself out of it now as I dont want to go down the road of it getting worse and worse. I need to learn to cope with my current situation. I still feel that I have come to a point of decision about things though. I have realised now that I never want to be a sort of "people person", a people-pleaser, that is... I am just not wired that way and I am so tired of feeling no confidence all the time. I feel that the only way I can feel confident is to just do as I feel and accept that it is not going to hit the right note with others at times. I just dont want to work that hard at life anymore. I want to relax and have fun and I cant have fun when I am constantly rating my performance, and comparing myself to other people, including other aspies who are more socially successful. I guess what I want to do is detach myself from whether others like me or not.

-6.

I don't want to die at the moment, but I'm still going to go take a barefoot walk on the pavement and take it out on my feet.

-10 I am a failure once again. What does the word "success" even mean???? Doesn't compute. I destroy people's lives around the world. More proof today and yesterday and there is NO excuse! It was beautiful weather and Mother's Day is tomorrow. I had a show selling my stuff...my art (not originals of course, just cards and prints). Yesterday I sold 3 things (all very CHEAP, $4) and today I sold even less. Almost everytime I show up at one of these shows, they almost ALWAYS say its the worst one ever. Once is a coincidence of course, but hundreds of times???? Last year I had some good luck and was the ONLY time I had good luck, that's why I said "almost" in some previous sentence. I don't want to hear its the economy, because one: its MY fault for it going bad in the first place and two, it is finally IMPROVING, I have been seeing the numbers in the last few months. In fact its "recovering" faster than I thought possible, I thought for sure that it won't recover until either late this year or early next year at the earliest!! ! The Dow will hit 10,000 before you know it, not 6,000 like I thought (even though earlier this year it was very close to that number, that was scary!!). Artists never make a good living and (unless they are the .0001% of the LIVING artists) usually you have to be DEAD before you can make money, what good is that??? I am worthless and hopeless. Is anything ever going to go according to plan for me?

7
Feeling happy, went shopping yesterday and got some new clothes then went to my friends house and we walked for miles just talking about stuff.

0. An improvement.

I have to see a doctor I'm not very familiar with because my one's away all week. This one isn't very delicate and might send my stress levels soaring like previous times. Dreading it. I just hope I'm not back here later posting about it.

3. Appointment with doctor went very well.

-9999999999999999999999999 I am nothing but a burden on this planet, my family, and who ever I come in contact with. I see the anger in my family against me, and in turn I use the anger back. Yet, it always manages to be MY FAULT. You can't imagine how depressed I feel. I am the most worthless thing on Earth, not worthy of being called "something." I have a complete lack of "intelligence", whatever that means, never heard that term before. I have failed nearly every single IQ test I have taken in my life (only one that I so called "succeeded" and that one wasn't that high either). Try looking up "Borderline Intellectual Functioning" and you will see me there. All my IQ tests have scored in that range. How do you spell "IQ" too difficult for me! I can't say everything that is on my mind on the Internet for good reasons but won't get into them here. I will never see success. Not within my reach. No one takes me seriously anymore. Can't breathe!! !! Panic setting in. Good memory at work. Everyone hates me. I am probably the most hated person "alive" right there with (don't know if he's alive though) Osama Bin Laden. I destroyed just as many lives, by destroying the economy and causing disasters using my mind (actually dreams). I destroyed my family's lives.

6, good day.

I'm doing a good, steady 8!! !

Still unemployed, but I have a couple of friends, and a new girlfriend

so, it's getting better

3

Alright I guess. Nothing bad going on but nothing great either.

i feel like my mind is splitting in two, schizo breakdown again. probably due to all the freaking stress im under with moving and my ghey drinking problem. well i know one thing i'll never go back to the mental hospital. i'd rather kill myself, that place was awful beyond belief

my 'good' part was a 10! Looked at a couple of apartments and had a friend offer to allow me to move in with her and take Baby.

my bad part was -8ish and included an explosion with my sister, being stalked on the bus, and getting into a fight with a different friend over something dumb

Bleh. I'm -1 right now. I've been feeling depressed lately.

0 zero

compared to -10 last couple days i'm great

-10 I just got 2 D's on classes that I must have to get my Major completed and I'll have to retake them and it's horrible my life sucks I'm just so unhappy and alone I wanna die

-10, feeling my world starting to crumble yet again.