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Ligea_Seroua
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20 Jun 2009, 7:17 pm

crashing back to my ground state of zero, after previous happiness.
I hate Saturdays. I feel that I should be having "fun", but as ever, home alone-ish. I end up forgetting to eat, getting chest pains and nosebleeds, crying over perceived sleights if my "friends" go out and don't invite me...to be fair they rarely go out and are all couples, why have some weirdo spinster loser tagging along? And yes, them all being couples adds that bit more salt to the wounds. And I know they have this perception of me of always being stoic, quick with the one-liners and never really all that down, they have no idea how often I have suicidal thoughts, how empty i feel and how hurt i get.

Ok, I'll blow my nose, stop listening to "Fade into you" and pull myself together a bit. I still feel low, but realise typing a load of misery here isn't going to change anything.

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20 Jun 2009, 7:35 pm

Ligea_Seroua wrote:

Wow sounds like you are describing me, especially the part about the one-liners and people not knowing how i really am.

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20 Jun 2009, 11:51 pm

Ligea_Seroua wrote:

Cheers, dude. Reading a message like this is always liberating. You're not alone, although knowing others share in similar agony doesn't make us feel much better, does it?

I hate weekends. Hate feeling like I should be 'out having fun', but instead home alone staring at a wall. Hate that I must feel as though socializing on weekends is important. Hate not having the means to make a real decision about what I want to do with my life. Hate having to live vicariously through others. Hate watching life from a bell jar for 30 years and counting...

Ehh, still, I'll give myself a +2 for today.

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21 Jun 2009, 7:15 am

+4.

Erminea wrote:

I feel lousy and real sh***y at the moment. Minus 6, I guess. F*ck.

I hope you feel better soon. I know you like flowers:

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21 Jun 2009, 10:50 am

^
That's very kind of you, Outlier. Thank you. Glad to see you are feeling ok. (and yep, those are my favourite flowers)

Jee, what a lousy day it was yesterday but luckily I feel a bit better today. Um, a cipher.... somewhere between 0 and 1, I guess.

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21 Jun 2009, 5:19 pm

3, bored
and missing a few of my school friends

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21 Jun 2009, 5:50 pm

A well balanced 5 today, not too high, not too low.....

Over the saturday night blues, thanks Funaho and brothersport....it is just something about saturday in particular. I suppose because I feel I'm getting old and in someways going nowhere, Saturday is just a symbol of this. Ah well, at least I can vent about it here.

Plus, I can't keep getting mistaken for being 25-26 for much longer I'm sure....and dont want to be the woman who is "mutton dressed as lamb"- not till I'm pensioner age and lose all my inhibitions anyway :lol:

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21 Jun 2009, 5:54 pm

0.. apathetic... bored...

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21 Jun 2009, 7:42 pm

Ligea_Seroua wrote:

Plus, I can't keep getting mistaken for being 25-26 for much longer I'm sure....and dont want to be the woman who is "mutton dressed as lamb"- not till I'm pensioner age and lose all my inhibitions anyway :lol:

I know I don't like weekends because, despite me wanting time off, I actually need the structure of being forced to get up and go to work in order to feel like I haven't wasted my day. At least today isn't too bad because I had to go grocery shopping after putting it off for the past week. I guess I'm back up to 0 now.

Love the Sparkle Motion quote btw....I am tempted to watch Donnie Darko again tonight even though it tends to stir up some not-so-good emotions in me.

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22 Jun 2009, 4:08 am

5.
Feeling remorseful

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22 Jun 2009, 1:04 pm

5. Busy day and looking forward to bedtime, content but weary.

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22 Jun 2009, 1:30 pm

-5

*me innocently driveing down a 35-40MPH, four lane each side highway! idiot in God ugly yellow clothing, sees me comming for more than a full 20 seconds, THEN steps infront of my car when I'm right there, and I swerve to avoid hitting his #$%! (which would have benifited humanity, had I 'accidently' not see him) I yell and cuss. "WHATCH WHERE YOUR GOING!! !"

idiot:"What did I do? You want got a problem or something? Wantta bring it b***h?" :evil: :evil:

For the forth, oh wait... FIFTH time now, some PRICK, with 0- brain cells, walks directly infront of my car while I was moveing at 40 miles an hour! :evil: I'm getting tired of the BS these brainless ones are pulling! And to act like I'M the one with a problem? Wow... Idiot certified, that one! He's officialy the stupidest pedestrian ever, and I'm angry!

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22 Jun 2009, 1:57 pm

LiendaBalla wrote:

For the forth, oh wait... FIFTH time now, some PRICK, with 0- brain cells, walks directly infront of my car while I was moveing at 40 miles an hour! :evil:

I'm getting tired of the BS these brainless ones are pulling! And to act like I'M the one with a problem? Wow... Idiot certified, that one! He's officialy the stupidest pedestrian ever, and I'm angry!

Stupid people, especially stupid drivers, are a major source of stress for me too....in fact on friday on my way home from work some idiot pulls right out in front of me and I damned year hit them and their annoying SUV. Lucky for me I had room to swerve out of the way.

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22 Jun 2009, 2:09 pm

+1

For 2 weeks between -2 and +2. Peace at last. :flower:

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22 Jun 2009, 3:35 pm

5, having a weird convo on msn

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