scale of -10 to +10, how do you feel right now?

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Better than usual, but... I don't know. I just don't know.








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I'm in a similar situation myself. Sometimes I feel OK, but then i have those bad times that remind me I could use some help. I did apply for benefits(SSD) the process is so slow that i have another year to wait, and it's already been a year and a half. So in the meantime, I'm stuck living on next to nothing. If I do try to get a job, I'll be exempted from SSD because that would convince them that I'm not disabled. I probably could force myself to work, and be an anxious mess, or i can wait and use SSD to get stabilized and maybe someday get on to a somewhat normal life. Maybe even go back to work again. That's my goal, but I'm so screwed up right now that i could really use some help. It sucks not knowing where your life is headed.


OK, back on track. I'm doing pretty good today. I do feel anxious as hell, but i think most of it is excitement or happiness(not sure). Either way, it's good enough for me. I will give today a +7.

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Yes that is sort of how I feel right now. I hope to get back to work, but the process to that exalted state seems so long that sometimes I wonder if I should just say "stuff it" and try and find a situation that is better for me at the present.

It is all a bit uncertain. I am not sure what will happen if I go for a diagnosis, or whether I would get it or not.. I wish I could win the lottery, then I would just do whatever I liked and not have to worry about these processes...

Anyway I guess we will eventually find a better lifestyle. A lot of people I know who have a diagnosis have managed to sort their lives out since then.

-4

My day went to hell.

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This living business is getting to be hard work.
Would like my eyes not to decide to start crying when I'm in public places.

-5

I'm an ass. I wish I could stop crying.

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((((((((((CelticGoddess, Ligea_Seroua))))))))) hope you both feel better. Strapples, Glad you are feeling ok.

Myself, a -4. I actually woke up feeling good but now I am sad over Farrah Fawcett and Michael Jackson. My mum is home sick and watching CNN but I cant bear to watch it. I never knew how emotionally attached I was to Michael Jackson. I remember his music from when I was about 3 or 4. And Farrah Fawcett.. far too young to go.

^Yeah, that's sad.

And I also hope CelticGoddess, Zen_mistress, and Ligea_Seroua are feeling better soon. I don't like to see anybody be bummed out.



Now i feel guilty to say I'm not doing too bad. I'm about a +5, but I'll leave it at that so it doesn't seem like I'm rubbing it in or anything.

dont get too down

they are CELEBRITIES

just plain joe schmoes like you and me
but i can understand if you were emotionally attached somehow

all i cared about was his music. oh well.

-5

I swear the work force commition is screwing with me. I tried doing it online. "sorry, your form cannot be completed. Please fill out the paper version of call these numbers." Ok, yeah, it's only been a week of trying to get it for nothing, because mother refused to believe me about the date I said I was hired, only to tell me days later that I was right. *yanks hair* Ohhhh, no hurry here. grrrrr.

I go to two seperate work force commition buildings. They hand me a #$% paper pamplet thing and tell me to call one of the long distance phone numbers!! Then I try to fill out stuff to be a "looking for work" member. Nope, more bull! If I need a pen number.... .. then they need to GIVE me a #$ PEN number, not screw with me! I have been a good reliable worker, doing what's asked of me, even when I didn't like some of it! Double shifts, being bitched at every shift, sometimes blamed for being bitched at!

I get laid off, and work for two weeks helping my boss put in info of over 14000 names, watching the whole time, my job wither away and be replaced by modern technology that human hands can do better anyway! AAarrrgggg! Do I REALLY diserve this?! NO!

You dont need to feel bad for feeling good. Enjoy being a +5 .



Thanks Strapples... I am feeling a bit better now, though still a little sad.

+8 Holy crap. Talk about a drastic turn today. I'm damn near euphoric.

Hope everyone is feeling better and their problems or issues solved, bigs hugs to all.

Thanks (((((((((computerlove)))))))))) for the good wishes.

I am probably about a -1 now... I still feel a bit sad. Today I went to the Borders bookstore and they were playing a Michael Jackson cd in there.. I felt like someone (ie a store worker) was feeling the same thing as me.. so I listened to quite a few of his songs and glanced at books, one of them being a photography book of peoples cats that were dressed up. Then I got caught in gridlocked traffic on the motorway on the way home. Off to bed soon.

-2

There are three members here that I hate with a real grudge, that I wouldn't hesitate to smash and claw their faces in with utter pleasure if I found their trashy hides!

Trolls want to funcion is packs now, right? Is it a current "down to an art" trend? In fact, I doubt they are on the spectrum. Ironic how it says they are from England. How very ironic, because the same number of trolls just so happened to be from around there when I frekwented another sight. Gee. .. what a coincidence! They made em the target for flameing and nobody cares! This is very....... very personal!